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I've been working a lot lately and the only thing i can think about when i'm working is how everyone is leaving me. At work people were talking about how they still have to pack and how much they've been procrastinating and now i wish i was packing and leaving elk grove behind again.
I can't imagine how it's going to feel this year being stuck working retail 3 days a week and dealing with crabby bosses and hellish customers. Staying behind in elk grove makes me feel ilke a dead-beat. (not that i'm calling anyone who lives here a deadbeat), but to me it feels strange because i went away last year. School starts in about a week and I don't even feel like i'm going.
I want to have a roommate again, to eat bad food, trudge through the snow just to look at the lake, and be able to run down the hall when i need to tell someone something. I know it's dumb, but i just don't want to spend the year here. I loved being independent (or as independent as you can be in a dorm.) There's something about it that makes me know i need to move out as soon as possible. Not because i don't love and appreciate my family, but because I know that there's a lot I can be doing on my own right now.
I just need to keep telling myself repeatedly that i'm saving money.