People are strange when your a stranger...
02/10/2005
ooohhhh I missed my journal so much. Today is exactly a month since i've written. And this weekend will be a month since I left Brownsville. Yup, I'm in San Antonio now. Its been going okay. School isnt so bad and we have a nice apartment. I dont know anybody here so that sucks. I miss everybody back home. I wouldnt be here in the computer lab like a dork wasting time if I had something to do. I'm just waiting for Gilbert to get out of work. I'm supposed to be working on my scholarships but I dont feel like it. I feel like going out tonight. I have a few ideas, hopefully gilbert will be up to it.
Bright Eyes on Tuesday was amazing. I still cant belive he was right in front of my face. I want to see him again. And I want him to play the old stuff. Coachella Festival is in March and I wanna go so bad. Coldplay is gonna be there, that says it all. I know its nearly impossible, but I like to think theres a slim chance. Where there's a will theres a way! Or at least thats what I've heard. Gilbert gave up on the whole idea and bursted my bubble, so it looks like I'm on my own on this one. I'm not holding my breathe, but I guess I'll just wait and see.
Valentine's Day is near. BOOOO. I'm not so bummed over it, but I just dont like it. All the dumb advertisements and commercials everywhere, why must they make all the lonely people feel worse? I already feel alone in this city, I dont have to be reminded. I dont like feeling lonely, but I really dont have any other option. Theres nobody here. Well actually theres a lot of people here,but I dont know any of them . I try not to feel sad, so far i've been okay, but you just cant help it sometimes. Dont get me wrong, I dont regret moving to SA, I really like being here, I just need to get used to it I guess. Hopefully it wont be long before I know my way around and I know a few people. I hope. Vinyl Dharma is gonna be in Austin on Friday. I really wanna go see them, but I'm not sure if I should. I'll probably feel funny, but I dont mind, I just wanna see him and say hi. But I dont know if he wants to see me. He's actually been an asshole to me, I dont know why even still care and wait around. He sucks, I hate him, I never want to talk to him again. I wish I meant that, but I dont.
Its funny how my mom wants me to call her everyday. I think i've talked to her more now that I'm away than when I actually lived there in the same house. Its kinda sad actually. But at least were talking. Sometimes we dont even know what to say, but we try to keep up somewhat of a conversation. I miss my mom. I havent really talked much to my dad. Hes been working and well he doesnt have much to say iether. Its usually been that way.
Well i have to go now, cuz I need to pick up gilbert. I will return soon.
faces seem ugly when your alone...