I'm in love with tricks, so pull another rabbit out of your hat...
07/20/06
maaaan im glad im off today. i was completely exhausted from work. i have worked everyday till now and been getting off late. stupid seaon fashion changes, markdowns and floorsets! working RETAIL can be a NIGHTMARE! yesterday i was asked to work a double.. 8am-3pm which they didnt actually let me go till 4:30 and then go back from 6:30pm-1 am. and then my 2hr break is really just 30 min, since i live like 100564845 miles away from Northstar plus traffic! forget it! why did i do it and not just say no? Partly because i have a problem and i cant say NO and well i need the hrs cuz i need money, and at 9/hr i'll work like a dog.
so today i have decided to do absolutely nothing. just bum around and be online. however i do wanna go to express and victorias secret and well today would be my only chance since im off. Its like the mall has kept me captive! working or not im there! that is soo sad.
it would aslo be great if i could hang out with Eryk D., but today hes having a long day too, he'll be at work pretty much from 7am - 9pm. so my guess is that i wont see him. :/
i cant believe he's done this to me!! i am not supposed to be girlish and have mushy feelings...yuck!
by now i should be complaining to gilb about him and finding silly reasons not to like him, then gilb would say that im too picky and i'll be like whatever im tired of him and were breaking up next week! that way i could go back to my normal mopiness of feeling sad and lonley at my own expense and wishning that i could just find somebody good.
but no. its like he knows the complaints ive made about every other person and hes doing exactly the oppsite so that i cant find a reason to brush him off. not even his crazy eyebrow bother me lol. he just sent me a txt...you SEE!!! he always does or says something to make me like him a little bit more...its as if...he's almost....perefect...................................................
SOMEBODY SHOOT ME NOW!
beacuse im not supposed to have what i want, and im afraid that i will ruin this by saying that i dont like him because he makes me happy or something ridiculous like that
or
before i become even more pathetic and develop actual feelings
im so scared...