...waiting...for you to want me, for you to need me, for you to notice me...
08/31/05
its been so long it feels wierd writting here again. its been over 2 months already, thats just not right.
lots of crazy stuff has happened during this time, i just cant remember what it was. august just kinda dissapeared.
3 things that stick out are the le tigre show which was awesomely crazy, sonia moved to SA,and gilberts bday which was a weekend of partying. oh yeah and school started, but thats not cool.
you've been 20 for about almost 3 weeks and your still alive. august is over and as horrible as the month seemed you made it through and i know you'll be fine. now its time to stir up some new drama so there'll be something to complain about and then life will be normal again.
sonia lived with us for 2 weeks an it was fun. we had some crazy laughs cuz shes CRAZY. she already got an apt though. she also has a job. that girl moves fast.
my parents are crazy. 'nuff said. my dad freaked out over the new spin cover cuz he thought death cab for cutie was a cult cuz they were holding a heart. whhaaaaat? ay ya yai. i think my parents forget that we actually live on earth not some church twilight zone. i still miss my parents though and my brothers as annoying as they are. too bad my relationship with them isnt so nice. i always feel bad about that it makes me sad. i always say i'm gonna try to make it better, but i dunno it just ends up being the same.ok well moving on before i start crying.
i got a job at express! wooo. so i'm quitting kohls. might be dum cuz i could get paid more at kohls but i dont care. its my dream come true.
i might give up on asian boys. the good ones are taken and the other ones are pot-heads. i saw the pot head at the mall yesterday and now i see the other guy at school, but he has a g/f. booo i know if it wasnt for her he'd be with me. i seen him look at me. lol. ahh i just want a cool, hot boyfriend, is that too much to ask? doesnt even have to be asian. i'm feeling emo and i've been listening to all my dashboard cds. its been a year now and its still passing so i think i'm ready for someone now. i've gotten over it all and now i hope that now that i want somebody somebody will want me.