Its Indie Rock N Roll for me..
09/24/04
I kinda ignored my journal for a little bit but I knew I would do that. I've never been good at keeping diaries or journals I always start and stop. But anyways.....
Gilbert and I made it back alive from Austin. We went to the Austin City Limits Festival and it was awesome!! Were back a little burned, a lot darker, tired but it was worth it all. Some of the best bands all in once place, 75,000 different people who love music, I just couldnt believe I was there. I could go on and on about the festival, but this entry would never end. If you were there you know what I'm talking about and if you weren't there you dont know what your missing out.
I didnt wanna come back to Brownsville I wanted to stay in Austin. I love it there. So much music. So much to do. So many different people. Why Brownsville?
Well in a couple of months I'll be going to UTSA, its not UT but it will do. Its only about 1 hr 30 min away so i'll be over there as much as possible. I can't wait to go, but at the same time it hurts to leave everything behind.
I feel better now. I'm not so sad anymore. A little lonely, but that usually doesnt change. After much thought, as much I'd hate to admit it, and say those awful words.. It Is better this way. Just 4 more months and i'll be entering a completely new place away from here and far from from you. Long distance doesnt work for you and I dont know what will be over there. It doesnt seem like its that far away but I guess a lot can happen beteween a 4 hour drive. It hurts a lot now, but I'm sure it would be a lot harder 4 months from now.
Still the one thought that wont let me rest is just thinking ...It wasnt worth the risk to hold on and hope that maybe things would work out?
I would never want to hurt you. Maybe thats just me. What could have been? I guess we'll never know.