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[silencedeyes]

i want to sleep in a bathtub of my own blood.
i am tired of seeing everything when i close my eyes.
i am waiting for anyone to rescue me.

i have been there for so many people's breakdowns.
noone is here for me.

i need help.
but the idea of being happy anymore makes me sick.

some people will never understand me.
i am an amazing faker of happiness.
but really i am so miserable.