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thats right, I'm updating again....
I guess that whenever my world spins wildly (and stupidly) out of control I just post stuff...
I dont think i'm gonna start posting things everyday or whatever, just now...
(and dont assume that I'm always depressed, I'm just always depressed when I post on live journal, there's a differnce)
the football game was stupid
but I'm glad I went
it taught me some very interesting things about people I thought I knew
it taught me that I hate you all, and about 2 people actually understand me in this entire universe, and niether of them are who they should be
You probably dont understand this, because I'm just typing whatever comes to mind. I dont even understand what I'm typing. All I know is that on thursday I cut for the first time since february... it wasnt deep at all, just a little shallow X on my upper arm, but I'm scared that it might lead to other things, worse ones....
I dont know why I'm posting all this, I guess it's because I doubt any one's gonna read it. does anyone read mine anymore now that I stopped posting?
I have to go my soccer games soon, and I'm just hoping that my jersey covers up my arm...
Reading what i just typed, i really hate myself and how dramatic i am. compared to some people, my life isnt that bad.
I guess that whenever my world spins wildly (and stupidly) out of control I just post stuff...
I dont think i'm gonna start posting things everyday or whatever, just now...
(and dont assume that I'm always depressed, I'm just always depressed when I post on live journal, there's a differnce)
the football game was stupid
but I'm glad I went
it taught me some very interesting things about people I thought I knew
it taught me that I hate you all, and about 2 people actually understand me in this entire universe, and niether of them are who they should be
You probably dont understand this, because I'm just typing whatever comes to mind. I dont even understand what I'm typing. All I know is that on thursday I cut for the first time since february... it wasnt deep at all, just a little shallow X on my upper arm, but I'm scared that it might lead to other things, worse ones....
I dont know why I'm posting all this, I guess it's because I doubt any one's gonna read it. does anyone read mine anymore now that I stopped posting?
I have to go my soccer games soon, and I'm just hoping that my jersey covers up my arm...
Reading what i just typed, i really hate myself and how dramatic i am. compared to some people, my life isnt that bad.