Its Not always all bad
I am leaving for the Marine Core and soon. I have till sept. 20 to get myself 3 pull ups again. I am working my best at it. Though it hurts I have to keep trying cause without three I got nothing. Right now I have good friends, i get to experience things I never thought possible and I get to leave it all behind to start over again. I dont know why but something screams adventure and new beginning and pain all at the same time. I do not know what to expect in boot camp but I am ready for it no matter what the price I will not quit on myself and I will not let myself down on this one. I am looking foward to everything to defending this country to the collage to the teeth getting fixed to the avaition mechanic job that I can get to the life after the core that I will have. The virtues I lack I can learn and be exposed to the things I want I can find there I just have to want them all bad enough. Someday I think I can learn to have emotions again, complicated or not I do believe enough now that when I am back on my feet again and I have got what I want from myself that I can have what I want elsewhere as well. I want to be strong again like I used to be first though. After that we will see.