READ THIS I DONT CARE IF YOU DONT FEEL LIKE IT BUT IF YOU KNOW WHAT WENT ON WITH ME AN DPATT DO IT N

[silence_falls]

I'm going to Patt's for the weekend. Tomorow night we are maybe seeing From Autumn to Ashes in Providence so that should be good if we go. Tonight I don't know what we're doing but I do know that at Justins there is a big POWWOWWWW that we are missing. we love you guys and sorry we cant come. I come home early Sunday morning. that should be just great. haha right. so Patt and Marisa were talking and they came to the subject that I didn't put what really went on with me and Patt in my journal... i just wrote what I felt at the time which was just really sad and upset and I didn't mention that breaking up was kind of caused by me. im paranoid and i tend to get mad pretty easily. if he said a girl was hot i'd take it personally.. but waht girl doesnt you know? but anyways, it got kinda dumb and i got out of hand and i just made him uncomfortable. i tend to be quite the bitch when im not happy with something and i tend to need to get lots of attention and by him saying another girl was hot i took it as she was better than i was.. which i shouldnt have cause all he was saying was that she was hot but oh well. its over so i figured to be nice like marisa did in her jorunal i would explain to you that im a paranoid bitch and he deserves better i guess. i know at times i was a good girlfriend but i know the times that i bitched just because he did little things that offended me (which shouldnt have) bugged the shit out of him.
so it was my fault. i brought it onto my self, and now he wants to be single. dont feel bad for me because ive already realized this and had my little sob sotry about it. im just letting you all know patt wasnt exactly the bad guy in our relationship.

ok well bye im leaving with him to go to his house now..

call me this weekend. DO IT 16039989610