I try so fuckin' hard but I can't fit your mold.
Ok, So I went to the Senses fail show with whitt at last minute. We woke up and she was like, one of your favorite bands are playing, and I asked who? and she was like Senses Fail, and at first I was a little hesitant because it was the day of the concert and I convinced ourselves that there was no way we were going to get tickets. But we did!!! And we got so lost on our way, we were about 40 minutes late, but it was all good because right when we got there, the first band started. The people there were so nice I forgot my cigs, and I would be saying stuff like "man I wish I had a cigarette" and people would be offering them to me. When SF came on, I seriously whent crazy, I let go So much!! We were moshing for about 4 songs straight. And I knew almost every song, It felt so good to sing along with them and get all my aggression out. I was singing so loud I thought I was going to pass out. We met up with Austin, Gene and Karnie. They were awesome, they werent afraid to go crazy and that was so awesome...They are awesome. So many people would talk about them and be like "those guys fuckin rock!". So towards the end me and Whitt got in the middle and started moshing. And for some odd reason I was like, shit, I couldn't stop starring and singing to the lead singer, which sounds pretty crazy. And guess where I ended up...THE FRONT ROW...I was less than a foot away from the lead singer!!For two whole songs I was there. There were so many people hitting me from the behind, hitting my head, elbowing my back and even pulling my hair. It was so hot anyone could have easily passed out, everyone was so sweaty that when they were shaking their heads sweat would be all over my face and I could taste it on my lips. But I didn't care. I didnt care about Anything. I let go and I was in a total different place. And as fuckin stupid it sounds I was freakin Screaming as much as I could to him...I was imagining him as so many people I dislike and can't stand..Chances are if you pissed me off within the past month...I imagined I was screaming to you. And even with so many people on my back I felt like it was just me and him...Only me and him...Then he grabbed my hand, and I was like...Ok, wow, that did it for me. All of a sudden this girl, who couldn't have been taller then 4'8'', I swear knocked me back a row or two, then the singer jumped into the crowd and like 6 of us held onto him, and I was holding his collar bone and no fuckin joke, he was looking right down, to where my face is still screaming!!! And I didn't stop singing once, then we put him back on stage, and he shook our hands, and that was it. But afterwards I met up with whitt and was telling her what happened but she was all out of it, I guess when I was up there some dumb big bitch fell down on her while they were crowd surfing, She took it pretty bad, he fell right on her neck, which made me sad. But shes a little better. But wow....Man, anyone who went there, knows that show Fuckin OWNED. it was the best feeling ever being up there, even though I was in so much pain I was still so in love with the moment, it was the best thing ever. I love you all!! Goodnight!!!!
Whoa they are checking me out...!!!!!! haha I wish.