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This...
I cannot actually find the words to describe it... so I will lay it out straight.
My journal has been breached.
Not just breached, but... violated.
The people who know me.
Knew me.
Will one day know me and know me better.
Know that the one thing you never.
Ever.
mutherfucking EVER.
mess with is my mind.
Don't touch it.
You can break me. It's just flesh.
You can taunt me, deride me, defile me. Drive me insane. It's just words.
My mind is my own.
My thoughts, my own.
My dreams, my visions, my nightmares, my fantasies, my opinions, my schemes, my delusions.
All mine.
ALL THE FUCK MINE.
People I have not approved of know my identity. And while it may not seem to be such a big deal to the people who watch this journal (all 0 of you), it is all I have. This journal is set up to make it impossible to access my identity. Period. For a reason.
I... I am just so hurt by this. And it is a small lost feeling, because I loved, and I trusted, the organization that did it.
I will post the journal that I am currently (still, lol) working on for the Hawai'i trip from this summer. And then I will no longer post to this journal.
I apologize, I made a foolish mistake.
I cannot actually find the words to describe it... so I will lay it out straight.
My journal has been breached.
Not just breached, but... violated.
The people who know me.
Knew me.
Will one day know me and know me better.
Know that the one thing you never.
Ever.
mutherfucking EVER.
mess with is my mind.
Don't touch it.
You can break me. It's just flesh.
You can taunt me, deride me, defile me. Drive me insane. It's just words.
My mind is my own.
My thoughts, my own.
My dreams, my visions, my nightmares, my fantasies, my opinions, my schemes, my delusions.
All mine.
ALL THE FUCK MINE.
People I have not approved of know my identity. And while it may not seem to be such a big deal to the people who watch this journal (all 0 of you), it is all I have. This journal is set up to make it impossible to access my identity. Period. For a reason.
I... I am just so hurt by this. And it is a small lost feeling, because I loved, and I trusted, the organization that did it.
I will post the journal that I am currently (still, lol) working on for the Hawai'i trip from this summer. And then I will no longer post to this journal.
I apologize, I made a foolish mistake.