Because she's 2000 Lightyears away...
I am remorseful to have missed so much of her life. She has been through quite a bit as of late. I wanted to be her shoulder to cry on, that voice to congratulate her, that punching bag for her to take her stress out on...but things haven't been going my way as of late. Just now I tried sending her a journal entry three times, and all three times something has happened...from a fire drill to a friend knocking the power cable out. Well regardless, I will to my best to remember what I said to her.
I'm coming home Sheryl, much sooner and with less then I expected. If you haven't gotten my letters yet, then I will inform what has been happening as of late. I got kicked out of the navy for back injuries beyond repair. So now i'm sitting here in SEPERATION waiting to go to LEGAL to find out when i'm heading on home. I'm estimating within the next two weeks...it hurts to know that something I worked so hard for, my high expetations of making something out of myself are gone...but I have shed enough tears for myself. Now I look at the benefits of coming home...and the benefit is seeing her again. Seeing Sheryl again. I will have nothing when I return home to Virginia...I fear my family will be ashamed of me...ashamed of my failure...especially my dad. And that hurts quite a bit...but on the plus, if I do take a plane home, I will be landing at Norfolk International Airport...which from there I can walk to Sheryl's house to see her...to be with her again...if she still wants me that is. I can only hope she will still love me as much as I hope she does. All I will have when I get back is 2000 dollars and the clothes on my back. I just hope I will have her as well when I get back.
Okay, I think that's how it went...I can't really remember to well what I first wrote, but dude, IT WAS GOOD!!! Ugh...well things are looking up as hopefully I will be going to legal tommorow and leaving sometime either late June or early July. Sheryl, i'm yearning for you right now my love...all I want more then even now is to hold you close...kissing those soft lips of yours, opening back up our untold story...but only you can decide that my angel. To whether open back up our book and continue writing words full of heart and beauty...or to shut it and throw it into the forgotten past. I want to continue Sheryl...I love you. You are my motivation to keep living now Sheryl. I dedicate my full heart to you...I dedicate my love to you...you are my dedication...you are my motivation.
I'm coming home Sheryl, much sooner and with less then I expected. If you haven't gotten my letters yet, then I will inform what has been happening as of late. I got kicked out of the navy for back injuries beyond repair. So now i'm sitting here in SEPERATION waiting to go to LEGAL to find out when i'm heading on home. I'm estimating within the next two weeks...it hurts to know that something I worked so hard for, my high expetations of making something out of myself are gone...but I have shed enough tears for myself. Now I look at the benefits of coming home...and the benefit is seeing her again. Seeing Sheryl again. I will have nothing when I return home to Virginia...I fear my family will be ashamed of me...ashamed of my failure...especially my dad. And that hurts quite a bit...but on the plus, if I do take a plane home, I will be landing at Norfolk International Airport...which from there I can walk to Sheryl's house to see her...to be with her again...if she still wants me that is. I can only hope she will still love me as much as I hope she does. All I will have when I get back is 2000 dollars and the clothes on my back. I just hope I will have her as well when I get back.
Okay, I think that's how it went...I can't really remember to well what I first wrote, but dude, IT WAS GOOD!!! Ugh...well things are looking up as hopefully I will be going to legal tommorow and leaving sometime either late June or early July. Sheryl, i'm yearning for you right now my love...all I want more then even now is to hold you close...kissing those soft lips of yours, opening back up our untold story...but only you can decide that my angel. To whether open back up our book and continue writing words full of heart and beauty...or to shut it and throw it into the forgotten past. I want to continue Sheryl...I love you. You are my motivation to keep living now Sheryl. I dedicate my full heart to you...I dedicate my love to you...you are my dedication...you are my motivation.