Oh wow. I feel so much better now,lol.
My day wasn't horrible really, but my spirits were low.
Well, i guess it's because I'm trying to contact this woman at a local law firm to see about a job opening I was offered-
but every time I call, she isn't there. Oh well. I'll just have to call again tomorrow! At first it was bothering me pretty bad since I don't want the woman to think i'm not interested..... but then I listened to Love Like Oxygen and all was right with the world again! I could face my munchkins with a true smile and have the energy to get down on the floor and play with them despite this bitch of a cold I have. I swear, SHINee seems to be the cure for everything lately which is sad. Woke up feeling like utter crap yesterday- however watching a vid of Onew's awesome failage made me feel so much better!
UGH. Doing the Fafsa is unearthing alot of long-buried sadness. Damn goverment, they just have to know everything. My mom is a widow, and has been one for going on 17 years at this point- but I drug out his obituary to verify the dates on my application because she wasn't home to ask- looking at his face on that paper, and realizing that I don't even remember what he looked like, the sound of his voice, or what life was like when he was still alive. Sitting there, thinking about that just made me so unbearably sad that I couldn't concentrate on the application anymore. I want to feel guilty, to feel sadness, because then I can prove to my mind that he was important to me and I loved him once upon a time. Daddy; saying that has always sounded strange, since I have no memories of him in the land of the living. Only watching his lifeless corpse be lowered into the ground forever. Born July 4, 1991- by january 23, 1995 it was just me and my mom.
I sat deep in thought for awhile, thinkg about everything and nothing at the same time- when I looked at my pc screen to see my favorite boys smiling and laughing back at me and it made me smile. Yay SHINee therapy,lol.
Well, i guess it's because I'm trying to contact this woman at a local law firm to see about a job opening I was offered-
but every time I call, she isn't there. Oh well. I'll just have to call again tomorrow! At first it was bothering me pretty bad since I don't want the woman to think i'm not interested..... but then I listened to Love Like Oxygen and all was right with the world again! I could face my munchkins with a true smile and have the energy to get down on the floor and play with them despite this bitch of a cold I have. I swear, SHINee seems to be the cure for everything lately which is sad. Woke up feeling like utter crap yesterday- however watching a vid of Onew's awesome failage made me feel so much better!
UGH. Doing the Fafsa is unearthing alot of long-buried sadness. Damn goverment, they just have to know everything. My mom is a widow, and has been one for going on 17 years at this point- but I drug out his obituary to verify the dates on my application because she wasn't home to ask- looking at his face on that paper, and realizing that I don't even remember what he looked like, the sound of his voice, or what life was like when he was still alive. Sitting there, thinking about that just made me so unbearably sad that I couldn't concentrate on the application anymore. I want to feel guilty, to feel sadness, because then I can prove to my mind that he was important to me and I loved him once upon a time. Daddy; saying that has always sounded strange, since I have no memories of him in the land of the living. Only watching his lifeless corpse be lowered into the ground forever. Born July 4, 1991- by january 23, 1995 it was just me and my mom.
I sat deep in thought for awhile, thinkg about everything and nothing at the same time- when I looked at my pc screen to see my favorite boys smiling and laughing back at me and it made me smile. Yay SHINee therapy,lol.