Avoiding sleeping?
I got one thing i never told anyone before..
it may sounds weird, but i'm afraid of going to sleep..
it's not the sleeping part that i'm afraid of, it's more the process of being asleep that i fear of so much..
when you're going to sleep, first of all u got to stop doing anything rite?
that's the part i hate the most.
here's the thing, when i stop doing anything, my mind would just filled up by thoughts,
thoughts i don't even wanna know they exist.
my thoughts are mostly dominate by emotions..
so yeah, it scares me as hell
i'm 20 now, but trust me, i still can't handle emotional thoughts that much..
either happy or bad emotions.
i'd break down in cry when the thoughts of someone far away came to mind.
and the feeling would just haunt me until i wake up the next morning
so i'll sleep with a dream of what i'm thinking that night
every night would just be another restless night.
maybe u'd think it was nice to have such happy memori or emotions when going to sleep.
Not For Me
happy memories for a lullaby would only cause me being excited..
and trust me, it's a bad thing if what i need to do is sleeping.
Oh my..
i'd love to have someone to put me to sleep every night..
that way i can be more relaxed and peaceful..
go marry someone then^^
i usually tire my self to sleep every night so that no bad thoughts come into my mind..
but when come times where i have nothing much to do, i'd end up breaking down from every thoughts i have.
What. The. Hell. Am. I. Talking. About????
sorry..
i guess i'm just avoiding sleeping right now :(
it may sounds weird, but i'm afraid of going to sleep..
it's not the sleeping part that i'm afraid of, it's more the process of being asleep that i fear of so much..
when you're going to sleep, first of all u got to stop doing anything rite?
that's the part i hate the most.
here's the thing, when i stop doing anything, my mind would just filled up by thoughts,
thoughts i don't even wanna know they exist.
my thoughts are mostly dominate by emotions..
so yeah, it scares me as hell
i'm 20 now, but trust me, i still can't handle emotional thoughts that much..
either happy or bad emotions.
i'd break down in cry when the thoughts of someone far away came to mind.
and the feeling would just haunt me until i wake up the next morning
so i'll sleep with a dream of what i'm thinking that night
every night would just be another restless night.
maybe u'd think it was nice to have such happy memori or emotions when going to sleep.
Not For Me
happy memories for a lullaby would only cause me being excited..
and trust me, it's a bad thing if what i need to do is sleeping.
Oh my..
i'd love to have someone to put me to sleep every night..
that way i can be more relaxed and peaceful..
go marry someone then^^
i usually tire my self to sleep every night so that no bad thoughts come into my mind..
but when come times where i have nothing much to do, i'd end up breaking down from every thoughts i have.
What. The. Hell. Am. I. Talking. About????
sorry..
i guess i'm just avoiding sleeping right now :(