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Its been quite some time since I have even considered endulging in a live journal post. For my sake, this is a good thing. I offically dub myself sane once again, this is quite the achievement, that is of course if you knew how distraught I was for so long. All of that is still there with me, but its concealed for the most part, thus bringing the sun light back into my shadowed world.
There have been a few note worthy events throughout the time I have not opened up to the live journal community, one such event was Happening, the one life changing, most amazing experience I myself have ever had the pleasure of being associated with. It brought me closer to God then I ever thought I could be, and it changed my attitude and outlook on everything. I was saved, its an amazing feeling. There were difficulties to go through that weekend, but with the help of a few good shoulders to lean on and express my doubt in myself, and my worries and problems, I made it out with few injuries. I miss Happening so much, and I cant wait for Happening 45 in the fall.
I got my licence on the same day I left to go to Happening, and sadly, it was only a week before my moment of glory was taken away due to my own stupidity. This I am not distressed about though, contrary to popular belief, I am more than happy that it was taken away, and an indescribable burden was lifted from my shoulders and my conscious that I still feel terrible about. This conversation ends with a "Thank you God, for all that you have done"
My sprits have been dramatically higher now more than ever. I go and give people hugs, its truely a great feeling, and to be able to talk to people without stressing, and just not bring drama but be as chill as possible. I say I have achieved a level of greatness that has long been missed. Though there are still things in my life that I wish I had done differently, or could achieve now...
I am currently recovering from a sprained ankle. I was on crutches, and this accident all started because of a rugby match. I am now stepping back onto the field and starting up my sports career once again. With an ankle brace, I feel somewhat unstoppable. Im like a cripple on wheels. Tournement in Knoxville next weekend...this will be how do you say, interesting, with a lack of our best players and a doubtful team. God will have to work his glorious magic and lend us a hand.
Finially it is spring break, this time couldnt have come any slower. I will be leaving for the beach on Sunday, its been long overdue, the beach no matter which one, is like my second home, I miss the sand, the smell of the ocean, the clear skyies, everything, its just an amazing feeling for me. Saddly, I will be going only with family, but this just provides alone time. I miss everyone else already, because I feel excommunicated when I go on break, everyons gone, but alas, this I will just work out amongst myself. I am excited for one of my Happening friends will be coming to visit from Greensboro, but I do hope I dont become a third wheel with Paige and Lizzie spending time with him on the same day as well. He is my friend after all too.
Thats all, untill my next post, I bid you fairwell and later dayz
In Gods Glory
*I know this post is long, and its staying long, so dont even tell me to use lj-cut.*