maybe this is the hormones talking, but....

[sign_me_here]

i kind of feel like crying.
over people i miss (there are just too many of them).
over what i want, but just cant manage to get.
over just life, and the lies i let you all believe.
i dont really blatently lie to anyone... just lead you to believe something that isnt true.

there are so many people i wish i could just be honest with.
but im a coward. and so i dont tell you whats really going on.

and i just miss everyone. people i havent seen in months...
or people i havent seen for days, but just feel like they should be a bigger part of my life.
it just feels like i used to be closer with people.
i feel so distant from too many of my old friends.
and it feels out of my control... like there is nothing i can really do to bring them back.

just a note: if i havent seen you extremely recently...i miss you.