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[Filter: Private; Language: Italian]
My time with Blake was so inspirational. It's comforting to know there are others out there in similar situations as my own, but are so confident and happy with themselves. Having supportive parents must help... but. No. I shouldn't make excuses. How can somebody be so open and unafraid, though? My father was so upset... His birthday was today. I tried to call, but as soon as he heard my voice he hung up. Hopefully he actually reads the card I sent in the mail.
I had hoped things changed. I hate how I've disappointed him. Why can't he forgive me? Blake said she didn't care about the people that judged her, that their opinions didn't matter. But it's my father. I miss him so much. I'd do anything to have him accept me again. Maybe if I visit in person, he'll be less likely to turn me away. He couldn't have meant when he said NEVER to come back. This summer. I'll go back to Florence this summer. It's been too many years.
I want to tell people. About who I am. But it's so difficult. My first boyfriend accused me of lying to him all that time we were together. Maybe he's right. That I should be upfront about it in the beginning, so there are no misunderstandings later. I'm just afraid nobody would give me a fair chance if they didn't get to know me first...
But I don't want to attach myself to that identity. I just want people to think of me as a woman. Not some fake woman. If I tell, won't they treat me differently?
I don't want anyone to hate me. But I want to be trusted. How can I ever have a serious relationship if nobody can trust me?
[Filter: Blake; Language: English]
Thank you so much for visit! You very lovely and inspiring company and time was wonderful. Clothes are very beautiful, can't thank enough. Perhaps I come visit you when have money? I love see you again. Hope got back safe!
[Filter: Luciano; Language: Italian]
You looked amazing in that bra. Very perky. Thanks for the CDs! Some of the lyrics were difficult to understand, so I googled them.
[Filter: Public; Language: English]
Must change my mind about English music. Everything fun and upbeat! Any recommends?
My time with Blake was so inspirational. It's comforting to know there are others out there in similar situations as my own, but are so confident and happy with themselves. Having supportive parents must help... but. No. I shouldn't make excuses. How can somebody be so open and unafraid, though? My father was so upset... His birthday was today. I tried to call, but as soon as he heard my voice he hung up. Hopefully he actually reads the card I sent in the mail.
I had hoped things changed. I hate how I've disappointed him. Why can't he forgive me? Blake said she didn't care about the people that judged her, that their opinions didn't matter. But it's my father. I miss him so much. I'd do anything to have him accept me again. Maybe if I visit in person, he'll be less likely to turn me away. He couldn't have meant when he said NEVER to come back. This summer. I'll go back to Florence this summer. It's been too many years.
I want to tell people. About who I am. But it's so difficult. My first boyfriend accused me of lying to him all that time we were together. Maybe he's right. That I should be upfront about it in the beginning, so there are no misunderstandings later. I'm just afraid nobody would give me a fair chance if they didn't get to know me first...
But I don't want to attach myself to that identity. I just want people to think of me as a woman. Not some fake woman. If I tell, won't they treat me differently?
I don't want anyone to hate me. But I want to be trusted. How can I ever have a serious relationship if nobody can trust me?
[Filter: Blake; Language: English]
Thank you so much for visit! You very lovely and inspiring company and time was wonderful. Clothes are very beautiful, can't thank enough. Perhaps I come visit you when have money? I love see you again. Hope got back safe!
[Filter: Luciano; Language: Italian]
You looked amazing in that bra. Very perky. Thanks for the CDs! Some of the lyrics were difficult to understand, so I googled them.
[Filter: Public; Language: English]
Must change my mind about English music. Everything fun and upbeat! Any recommends?