The most difficult entry....
...of my life... so far...
I was thinking and re-thinking about why dark RP slashfic horrifies me so much... Well, i think deep inside (and that's not that i never ever questioned this and found some kind of the same explanation) i knew the answer...
I am posting this so as to explain my position about it, it's not only a whimsical or fanatic, closed ( Read more... )
I was thinking and re-thinking about why dark RP slashfic horrifies me so much... Well, i think deep inside (and that's not that i never ever questioned this and found some kind of the same explanation) i knew the answer...
I am posting this so as to explain my position about it, it's not only a whimsical or fanatic, closed ( Read more... )
The Falklands War on 1982 was the detonant of their fall, they wanted to stay there trying to win something that was already lost, but this took off the blindfolds of many people here and i was just 11 years old, only thing i knew was it wsn't a good thing as most people said, that we didn't like it at home (so many called us traitors...my parents couldn't speak their minds freely then) and thet my dad lost his job and all our world fell to the floor... Democracy was very difficult and so we're still 'learning' how to be free...and be a 'united' society... People here has all the inner boundaries (and so they translate to the outside) blurred...
Well, there you have my aversion to war and all what's militar too...
You don't have to be sorry cause you didn't have the obligation to know... Thank you for understanding, this means a lot to me now... i still don't know where did i took the strength to share this... (i had it completely veiled...)
*hugs back*
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War has always been a distant thing for me. It was either far in the past or far away physically. 9-11 was the closest I've physically (or emotionally) been to that level of violence, and I was way into adulthood by that time. And that was a grand act of terrorism, not outright war. Not military occupation.
So the band using war as a metaphor doesn't hit me emotionally. It's another academic thing, a mental exercise. And, I imagine, it's the same for the guys in the band. Unless they had relatives who were in the military, they were likely equally sheltered growing up.
*hugs again* I appreciate your candor. It means a lot that you shared this with us.
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Well, as my mom always tells me, we never had any problem within the regime... so we cannot complain at all, but i think even though, that period dug deep into our skins... i tell you, we have to look deep inside to find all the fears that stuck inside of us... but well, when the truth got exposed, many horrors that happened, sometimes just round the corner, came to light... i can't even imagine what must that have been like... We had a couple of friends (well, my parent's friends) who were taken by mistake... fortunately, they did nothing to them and released them quite quickly, but the experience was terrifying the same...
Yes, i think the boys take war in another level of significance... still i tend to rebel... *g*
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Maybe it's an American thing, but we reserve the right to complain about anything. We also feel that we have the right to complain to anyone, even our leaders.
That "Outliers" book I just finished had a chapter on this. Americans have a low-power distance relationship when it comes to authority. As a culture, we'll tell anyone what we think, no matter how they are ranked with respect to us. I imagine that Argentina is still a high-power distance culture. I know your neighbor Brazil was listed on the high side of the list. Top of the list, actually.
Anyway, I don't think you need to be the one hurt to be damaged by an environment. That's why I avoid the local news. Baltimore city has a lot of black on black violence. So, while I'm neither part of the target group, or living immediately in the situation, I don't want the stress of hearing about that all the time.
Does it make you want to leave? I mean if money wasn't an object and you got visas and you could move your whole family, would you want to leave?
By the way, tell me anytime you want to stop talking about this. I don't want to delve deeper than you want to go. I can't quite tell if it's a relief to have gotten it out or if talking about it just hurts.
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Besides, even well organized complaints are most of the times overheard by our governments... :S
Well, today we're living at a level of violence that i always get overwhelmed it can keep growing... there are terrible things happening with people, mostly those at the suburbs of the city... the atrocities that sometimes i get to know by the media are really terrifying... But well, i know TV, newspapers and the radio 'live' from that kind of news, so yes, i also tend to avoid news of all sorts... i sometimes seem to live inside a bubble...
I many times wanted to leave the country...not that i don't like this place or most of people, it's the unjustice of living in a place that has it all and it's wasted by the people in charge and they seem to be mocking us cause they rob us in front of our faces... we all know that any of those who can get to the power, will do the same and deceive us... there's nobody on sight that gives a little of hope that this situation will change... that's what frustrates me of living here... Leaving this bloody city at least... some provinces have better places to be... though the posibilities of getting a good job there are scarce...
It helps me getting it out of my system, to re-think things, to see if it's that terrible or not... if i don't talk, it keeps being inside and i think that's even worse... so thank you :) It's a big relief :)
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I certainly understand living in a bubble. Not that I'm dealing with anything nearly as bad, but it's that same desire to not hear the bad stuff that you can't fix.
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Well, the same happens to me...it's frustrating and also it makes you feel scared to even leave your house... or to stay in it... :S
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