Drivers License...Apology
Got my driver's license today...finally
I also realized that I have really been a bitch to everyone. Since I've met any of you, I've been like this horrible, skulking entity just waiting to leap out and say something to hurt people's feelings. I did it to my mom tonight, and I realized I say things to keep people at arm's length from me, so I don't have to deal with really strong emotions. It's all about me, that's all I ever worry about. I have flashes of goodwill and thankfullness, but most of the time I'm thinking about myself, and not about anyone else. I never remember people's names. I don't get people presents for anything. I lash out at people in order to drive them off, so I don't have to make myself uncomfortable (love = evil word).
I see myself doing this to people, and I know I'm driving people away. Tyg, I feel us growing apart, and I can't help but feel responsible for it. You may think I'm being ridiculous, but I feel like it's my fault. I haven't worked hard enough at our friendship. I'm sorry for not appreciating you enough, and I hope you can forgive me.
I'm a weak person. I'm sorry to everyone, and I promise I'll try to be more appreciative of everyone. If you ever feel undermined by me, talk to me about it. I'm becoming a better person, starting now.
I also realized that I have really been a bitch to everyone. Since I've met any of you, I've been like this horrible, skulking entity just waiting to leap out and say something to hurt people's feelings. I did it to my mom tonight, and I realized I say things to keep people at arm's length from me, so I don't have to deal with really strong emotions. It's all about me, that's all I ever worry about. I have flashes of goodwill and thankfullness, but most of the time I'm thinking about myself, and not about anyone else. I never remember people's names. I don't get people presents for anything. I lash out at people in order to drive them off, so I don't have to make myself uncomfortable (love = evil word).
I see myself doing this to people, and I know I'm driving people away. Tyg, I feel us growing apart, and I can't help but feel responsible for it. You may think I'm being ridiculous, but I feel like it's my fault. I haven't worked hard enough at our friendship. I'm sorry for not appreciating you enough, and I hope you can forgive me.
I'm a weak person. I'm sorry to everyone, and I promise I'll try to be more appreciative of everyone. If you ever feel undermined by me, talk to me about it. I'm becoming a better person, starting now.