So I will head out alone, hope for the best
You know what? I really freaking love my subconscious sometimes.
Recently I have been freaking at the fact all of my friends from high school are in serious long term relationships of at least a year. And I'm the only single one. I've been paranoid that they secretly laugh at me, or think I'm a freak. Or pity me. Or aren't surprised. It's been really eating away at me.
Then last night I had one of my Therapist Gee dreams. Where I'm asleep in my bed, he climbs through my window and sits on my bed watching me till I wake up. At which point I spill my guts to him and he gives me really good advice.
Last night he told me that I had absolutely nothing to be freaking about and in fact I should be proud of my life. Out of all of my high school friends, I will be the first to graduate uni next year. I know what direction I want to take with my life. I will be doing what I want to do, like travel, while they are still at uni or even contemplating starting uni. Or working in their parent's business just because it's easier than finding a real career. I have made a really, really close friend through uni and all they have are their friends from high school that are more work than fun.
Out of all of them, there are only two with good relationships. I have no reason to envy any of the others. In fact I pity them. I am not simply with a guy because I don't want to be alone. I am not tied down to a possessive guy who threatens to dump me whenever I try to fulfill my dreams. I'm not with a guy with commitment issues and would only agree to a relationship once i fucked him.
I know it's not much, but it felt really, really liberating when I realised that I will be the first to graduate. My imminent departure to The Real World doesn't scare me either because of a previous Therapist Gee dream lol. I'll only be 20 when I graduate meaning I can take a year or two or even three off to travel and do what I want while the others are still trapped by education.
Thanks Therapist Gee!
Recently I have been freaking at the fact all of my friends from high school are in serious long term relationships of at least a year. And I'm the only single one. I've been paranoid that they secretly laugh at me, or think I'm a freak. Or pity me. Or aren't surprised. It's been really eating away at me.
Then last night I had one of my Therapist Gee dreams. Where I'm asleep in my bed, he climbs through my window and sits on my bed watching me till I wake up. At which point I spill my guts to him and he gives me really good advice.
Last night he told me that I had absolutely nothing to be freaking about and in fact I should be proud of my life. Out of all of my high school friends, I will be the first to graduate uni next year. I know what direction I want to take with my life. I will be doing what I want to do, like travel, while they are still at uni or even contemplating starting uni. Or working in their parent's business just because it's easier than finding a real career. I have made a really, really close friend through uni and all they have are their friends from high school that are more work than fun.
Out of all of them, there are only two with good relationships. I have no reason to envy any of the others. In fact I pity them. I am not simply with a guy because I don't want to be alone. I am not tied down to a possessive guy who threatens to dump me whenever I try to fulfill my dreams. I'm not with a guy with commitment issues and would only agree to a relationship once i fucked him.
I know it's not much, but it felt really, really liberating when I realised that I will be the first to graduate. My imminent departure to The Real World doesn't scare me either because of a previous Therapist Gee dream lol. I'll only be 20 when I graduate meaning I can take a year or two or even three off to travel and do what I want while the others are still trapped by education.
Thanks Therapist Gee!