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I didn't get the fucking job. They went with someone who actually has marketing experience. I am completely and utterly crushed. Why did they put me through all of that only to turn me down? They knew from the start I didn't have marketing experience. Why did they make me okay it with my bosses? Why did Elaine imply to Jo that I had the job? Mum thinks that maybe I was Elaine's choice and that HR over-rode her to pick the one with marketing experience.
The worst of it is now I have to tell my bosses I didn't get it. It's bad enough that each unsuccessful attempt feels like failure to me, but it's even worse that I have to tell my bosses I failed. They don't see job hunting as a process. They always think that once you have an interview you have the job and to have to go back and say "nope, I wasn't good enough" makes me feel like ass.
On the good side Rach is taking me out for Max Brenner tonight. Om nom chocolate restaurant.
The worst of it is now I have to tell my bosses I didn't get it. It's bad enough that each unsuccessful attempt feels like failure to me, but it's even worse that I have to tell my bosses I failed. They don't see job hunting as a process. They always think that once you have an interview you have the job and to have to go back and say "nope, I wasn't good enough" makes me feel like ass.
On the good side Rach is taking me out for Max Brenner tonight. Om nom chocolate restaurant.