Woe.
Worst day of my life. Ever.
Samuel had not responded to my message by the morning so I woke up with a massive ball of anxiety in my stomach. I couldn't eat and only forced myself to so I could take my anti-stress vitamins. They helped chill me out for a while but by about 1pm I was starting to feel it building again.
Then his dad came into the store. He was sweet as ever, checking things out and having a chat. Next thing I know Samuel walked in looking possibly the most attractive I've ever seen and I did't know what to do. He hadn't replied yet but there he was in the store! So I stood near the front and rearranged a display and he walked straight past me without even looking at me! Bel saw it and was just as confused as I was.
Jo chose that moment to send me to lunch and when I got to Gloria Jeans I just started crying. I couldn't help it. I'd been so stressed all day and then to be ignored like that? After months and months of liking this guy, of shy conversations and watching and then for it to come down to this??? I was still crying when I got back to work and he was there again with his dad so I skirted around to hide in the back room. Jo saw me crying and I told her why so she made Bel ask Samuel what his deal was. She said something like I was wondering if he got my text and he replied that he had, his phone was off last night and he was going to respond tonight.
But now it's 9:51pm and he hasn't called or messaged and I am positive that he has been scared off by Bel running after him out of the store and interrogating him. I must seem like such a clingy girlfriend and we haven't even gone on a date yet.
In short I am crushed and stressed and upset and confused and regretful and angry and I feel so fucking sick. I can't eat more than a few mouthfuls of food and God this fucking sucks. I had contemplated and worried about so many different scenarios but this wasn't one of them. I never for a moment thought that this would happen.
THIS is why I don't date. THIS is why I prefer to sit back and watch from afar, because nothing ever fucking goes right.
Samuel had not responded to my message by the morning so I woke up with a massive ball of anxiety in my stomach. I couldn't eat and only forced myself to so I could take my anti-stress vitamins. They helped chill me out for a while but by about 1pm I was starting to feel it building again.
Then his dad came into the store. He was sweet as ever, checking things out and having a chat. Next thing I know Samuel walked in looking possibly the most attractive I've ever seen and I did't know what to do. He hadn't replied yet but there he was in the store! So I stood near the front and rearranged a display and he walked straight past me without even looking at me! Bel saw it and was just as confused as I was.
Jo chose that moment to send me to lunch and when I got to Gloria Jeans I just started crying. I couldn't help it. I'd been so stressed all day and then to be ignored like that? After months and months of liking this guy, of shy conversations and watching and then for it to come down to this??? I was still crying when I got back to work and he was there again with his dad so I skirted around to hide in the back room. Jo saw me crying and I told her why so she made Bel ask Samuel what his deal was. She said something like I was wondering if he got my text and he replied that he had, his phone was off last night and he was going to respond tonight.
But now it's 9:51pm and he hasn't called or messaged and I am positive that he has been scared off by Bel running after him out of the store and interrogating him. I must seem like such a clingy girlfriend and we haven't even gone on a date yet.
In short I am crushed and stressed and upset and confused and regretful and angry and I feel so fucking sick. I can't eat more than a few mouthfuls of food and God this fucking sucks. I had contemplated and worried about so many different scenarios but this wasn't one of them. I never for a moment thought that this would happen.
THIS is why I don't date. THIS is why I prefer to sit back and watch from afar, because nothing ever fucking goes right.