mebbe...
leaving early. Matt just rolled my jeep (why dont i learn? never let people borrow your cars) and its totaled. whee!
i'm selling all of his shit, parting/scrapping the jeep, selling the LHS, and putting my shit on a truck, and flying to NC. I'm leaving this cold shitty place. I'm sick of going into hospitals and seeing people my age or even younger doing the job i want to do. I'm going to go to school, and get that, and stop waisting my life away here.
I'll be around to say goodbyes and what not sometime this week.... but if i dont get to you, well here is a generic goodbye for those of you :
you all have made my life everything i could hope for. I didn't grow at all in nj , even though i had lived there until 15, i feel like my whole life has been based off of what has happend here in utah. And i feel like i'v learned all i can here, and i need to move on, because NOTHING is happening right now. well, besides all of this motivational influence to get the fuck out of here that occurred tonight.
I came to this state not even knowing who i was
I'm leaving with goals of who i want to be
I'm leaving happy with the person i turned out to be, right now
the car was an heirloom so i never *really* paid for it, i just well, got it as a prize for something else that sucked (mom dieing, and why the FUCK did i stay here after my whole family moved out of here?)
You guys! my friends. I considered you more family than the people that ARE my family in NC and NJ.
So why am i moving?
Well, right now i feel like this meets the best plan for me to stop being stagnent and getting motivated to go on with my life. Not that you guys are borring, if anything, you are too much awsome and distracting.
So, i'll move, find an apartment where i can have a dog. Daddy (jesus believe me i'v never called him that, but he's having a mid life i have to take care of my orfinnend kids thing going on, ) will pay for the apartment and school, as long as i maintain a GPA of a person not a dumbass (all i do now 'in days is read medical journals, and play house diagnose me games on the internet.) and become a nurse and be THAT person i WANT to be. I do believe that will make me happy
and i wouldnt be able to of seen that if i never experienced everything i have here.
Im calling my brother in NC to make arrangements after i get my ex-jeep gutted and buried.
Anyway. I have to honor a fallen vehical friend with a dead jack daniels and a modelo especial, you know, with the gold foil so its like beer champaign.
and get, the fuck, out , of, here.
i'm selling all of his shit, parting/scrapping the jeep, selling the LHS, and putting my shit on a truck, and flying to NC. I'm leaving this cold shitty place. I'm sick of going into hospitals and seeing people my age or even younger doing the job i want to do. I'm going to go to school, and get that, and stop waisting my life away here.
I'll be around to say goodbyes and what not sometime this week.... but if i dont get to you, well here is a generic goodbye for those of you :
you all have made my life everything i could hope for. I didn't grow at all in nj , even though i had lived there until 15, i feel like my whole life has been based off of what has happend here in utah. And i feel like i'v learned all i can here, and i need to move on, because NOTHING is happening right now. well, besides all of this motivational influence to get the fuck out of here that occurred tonight.
I came to this state not even knowing who i was
I'm leaving with goals of who i want to be
I'm leaving happy with the person i turned out to be, right now
the car was an heirloom so i never *really* paid for it, i just well, got it as a prize for something else that sucked (mom dieing, and why the FUCK did i stay here after my whole family moved out of here?)
You guys! my friends. I considered you more family than the people that ARE my family in NC and NJ.
So why am i moving?
Well, right now i feel like this meets the best plan for me to stop being stagnent and getting motivated to go on with my life. Not that you guys are borring, if anything, you are too much awsome and distracting.
So, i'll move, find an apartment where i can have a dog. Daddy (jesus believe me i'v never called him that, but he's having a mid life i have to take care of my orfinnend kids thing going on, ) will pay for the apartment and school, as long as i maintain a GPA of a person not a dumbass (all i do now 'in days is read medical journals, and play house diagnose me games on the internet.) and become a nurse and be THAT person i WANT to be. I do believe that will make me happy
and i wouldnt be able to of seen that if i never experienced everything i have here.
Im calling my brother in NC to make arrangements after i get my ex-jeep gutted and buried.
Anyway. I have to honor a fallen vehical friend with a dead jack daniels and a modelo especial, you know, with the gold foil so its like beer champaign.
and get, the fuck, out , of, here.