something from rachel's lj
"Just write 10 statements intended towards 10 different people, about something you would never say to their face, or something you wish you would have said to them, but didn’t. But don't tell anyone who any of the statements are about. "
(But you readers are more than welcome to guess)"
1. Hi there. You look beautiful. I mean it. Really beautiful. I wish you would realize that. Everyone else does. Why don't you ever call me? I call you so much just wanting to make sure you are okay. But you never answer, never respond, never return the favor. You just drink your problems away. That's not good for you. It's not good for anyone. You hurt people when you are drunk, and you don't remember doing it afterwards. I love you. I really do.
2. You suck. I hate you. I hate your face. Your hair. Your fingers. Your stomach. Your voice. Your teeth. That stupid thing you do when you're annoyed. The way you treat me. The way I feel around you. The way you feel about me. The way you look at me. The way you don't look at me. The tone of your voice. Your habits. Your twitches. Your ups. Your downs. My misunderstanding. My complete understanding. My absolute loathing of you.
You disgust me.
I love you. I love your face. I love your arms. I love your hair. I love your eyes. I love your shape. I love your wax. I love your wane. I love your hair. I love your voice. I love your Self. I love your personality. I love your masculinity. I love your fears. I love your bravado. I love your femininity. I love your lusts. I love your life. I love your habits. I love your loves. I love your body. I love the way you make me feel. I love the way I feel about you. I love how I can never have you.
You bewitch, befuddle, confuse, abuse, and refuse yet completely amuse me.
3. Hey. Leave me alone. Stop bothering me. I know what I can and can't do. I don't care. I will if I want to. I won't if I don't want to. Let me do it myself. Stop nagging me. I'm tired of you. Bah. Some times I fucking hate you.
4. STOP DOING THAT. It offends me. Sometimes I can take it, but most of the time I'm just bruised up and pissed off when it happens. You think it doesn't bother me, but it really does. I don't like it when you torment me like that. I suppose it's just how you act with or around your friends, but I'm not just one of your friends. You can't just use me whenever you feel like you can or should. I'm a needy person sometimes - especially when it comes to friendship. You can't just leave me out in the cold until you need to have a good cry and then call me up, expecting to have a shoulder to cry on. I'm not that loyal to those who abuse my trust.
5. You hurt too many people with your weird habits. You are so sexual, but you aren't sexual enough. I don't really know how to react to you. You have so many changes . . . . you're so hard to understand. Why don't you just accept the love you can get, and let the love you cannot have go until it is accessible? I don't care how much of an innocent little girl in the games of love I am in comparison to you. Stop hurting people. Stop letting them hurt you. I think pain is a two way street in this case. Perhaps if you stop oozing bad karma, you'll stop getting it back threefold.
6. Okay. So here's the deal. You're taken. That's fine. I don't mind. But please don't tempt me. You know that phrase, "be careful what you wish for because it might come true."? I don't think you could take it if it actually came true for you. You aren't strong enough for me. I would completely ruin you. We would annoy the hell out of each other. I'm not sure what to think of you in the sexual aspect. I'm not going to have sex with you. I may have some fun sleeping with you, but I'm not going to have sex with you. Count that out. Although I grab your leg, and you grab mine and we have a lot of fun laughing about it at the time, I'm not scared of going further for myself. I'm scared of going further for you. You were surprised the first time I did it. And then with my sister. But we're not joking. We will go there. And not come back. You don't want that to happen. You won't survive.
That's as far as I'm willing to go right now. I'll finish some other time.
(But you readers are more than welcome to guess)"
1. Hi there. You look beautiful. I mean it. Really beautiful. I wish you would realize that. Everyone else does. Why don't you ever call me? I call you so much just wanting to make sure you are okay. But you never answer, never respond, never return the favor. You just drink your problems away. That's not good for you. It's not good for anyone. You hurt people when you are drunk, and you don't remember doing it afterwards. I love you. I really do.
2. You suck. I hate you. I hate your face. Your hair. Your fingers. Your stomach. Your voice. Your teeth. That stupid thing you do when you're annoyed. The way you treat me. The way I feel around you. The way you feel about me. The way you look at me. The way you don't look at me. The tone of your voice. Your habits. Your twitches. Your ups. Your downs. My misunderstanding. My complete understanding. My absolute loathing of you.
You disgust me.
I love you. I love your face. I love your arms. I love your hair. I love your eyes. I love your shape. I love your wax. I love your wane. I love your hair. I love your voice. I love your Self. I love your personality. I love your masculinity. I love your fears. I love your bravado. I love your femininity. I love your lusts. I love your life. I love your habits. I love your loves. I love your body. I love the way you make me feel. I love the way I feel about you. I love how I can never have you.
You bewitch, befuddle, confuse, abuse, and refuse yet completely amuse me.
3. Hey. Leave me alone. Stop bothering me. I know what I can and can't do. I don't care. I will if I want to. I won't if I don't want to. Let me do it myself. Stop nagging me. I'm tired of you. Bah. Some times I fucking hate you.
4. STOP DOING THAT. It offends me. Sometimes I can take it, but most of the time I'm just bruised up and pissed off when it happens. You think it doesn't bother me, but it really does. I don't like it when you torment me like that. I suppose it's just how you act with or around your friends, but I'm not just one of your friends. You can't just use me whenever you feel like you can or should. I'm a needy person sometimes - especially when it comes to friendship. You can't just leave me out in the cold until you need to have a good cry and then call me up, expecting to have a shoulder to cry on. I'm not that loyal to those who abuse my trust.
5. You hurt too many people with your weird habits. You are so sexual, but you aren't sexual enough. I don't really know how to react to you. You have so many changes . . . . you're so hard to understand. Why don't you just accept the love you can get, and let the love you cannot have go until it is accessible? I don't care how much of an innocent little girl in the games of love I am in comparison to you. Stop hurting people. Stop letting them hurt you. I think pain is a two way street in this case. Perhaps if you stop oozing bad karma, you'll stop getting it back threefold.
6. Okay. So here's the deal. You're taken. That's fine. I don't mind. But please don't tempt me. You know that phrase, "be careful what you wish for because it might come true."? I don't think you could take it if it actually came true for you. You aren't strong enough for me. I would completely ruin you. We would annoy the hell out of each other. I'm not sure what to think of you in the sexual aspect. I'm not going to have sex with you. I may have some fun sleeping with you, but I'm not going to have sex with you. Count that out. Although I grab your leg, and you grab mine and we have a lot of fun laughing about it at the time, I'm not scared of going further for myself. I'm scared of going further for you. You were surprised the first time I did it. And then with my sister. But we're not joking. We will go there. And not come back. You don't want that to happen. You won't survive.
That's as far as I'm willing to go right now. I'll finish some other time.