You might get what you hope for if you at least even try for it
The passing of my granny was something quite different and she definitely left this world the way I would have expected from her - in her own unique way.
Gotta admit that I've never been close to her due to various reasons but then again, I cannot help but to admire the way she lived her life. She was a carefree soul who didn't care much about the rest of the world. That was the image she gave me - a loner and someone who didn't care what others thought.
This was probably why I saw her passing as a celebration of life. The entire affair was quite a boisterous and rowdy scene at times as relatives and friends streamed in every day and nite.
I guess the only way to go one up is to actually hold a party.
As the eldest grandson, I was supposed to handle a lot of things. And thankfully I have my brother and sister around to help me. And of course there were the aunts and uncles who were always around to help.
Of course when there are too many people giving their suggestions, I had to cut in and make a decision. I don't know if I offended any of my elders but it wasn't my intention at all. The only thing to do was to make a choice and that was it.
This was also an occasion for me to meet my friends and a chance for me to sit down and chat with some of my relatives whom I normally see once a year during Chinese New Year. In many ways, I was glad I got to talk to my relatives, even if it was a brief conversation.
In life, many people hope for many things and wish for just about everything they could think of in life.
Over the years, my dreams and wishes probably have changed not just in it's quantity (getting less) but also in direction.
Now I'm working, because I enjoy most parts of it and not just because it's a job and that I need to feed myself. Life to me in the past 4 years have been really good - I had the good fortune to experience different places, food and people. Got to see how fucked-up places and people can be and yet at the same time, I got see how great total strangers can be.
Before 30, I was trying to live in dream land. One movie made me waked up my ideas - "The 40 Year Virgin".
And over the last 2 years, I changed my objectives. Guess adolescence came to me pretty late and it's time for me to shake off any notions of a romance like one will see in either movies or books.
And of course the realization that a true relationship involves both parties reciprocating. If only 1 party wants to be loved without loving unconditionally or is loving unconditionally without being loved, all I can say is that both parties are in self-denial.And there's one that is a selfish bastard that wants to have another person by their side while they keep on looking for a better choice - assholes! And somehow I think the best places to look for these people are the clubs.
While my search continues as I strive to break out of my broken dreams (darn! if only things are like in the books!), I'm glad to say that a lot of me mates are tying the knot this year and a few are getting hitched or in the process of doing so.
Gotta admit that I've never been close to her due to various reasons but then again, I cannot help but to admire the way she lived her life. She was a carefree soul who didn't care much about the rest of the world. That was the image she gave me - a loner and someone who didn't care what others thought.
This was probably why I saw her passing as a celebration of life. The entire affair was quite a boisterous and rowdy scene at times as relatives and friends streamed in every day and nite.
I guess the only way to go one up is to actually hold a party.
As the eldest grandson, I was supposed to handle a lot of things. And thankfully I have my brother and sister around to help me. And of course there were the aunts and uncles who were always around to help.
Of course when there are too many people giving their suggestions, I had to cut in and make a decision. I don't know if I offended any of my elders but it wasn't my intention at all. The only thing to do was to make a choice and that was it.
This was also an occasion for me to meet my friends and a chance for me to sit down and chat with some of my relatives whom I normally see once a year during Chinese New Year. In many ways, I was glad I got to talk to my relatives, even if it was a brief conversation.
In life, many people hope for many things and wish for just about everything they could think of in life.
Over the years, my dreams and wishes probably have changed not just in it's quantity (getting less) but also in direction.
Now I'm working, because I enjoy most parts of it and not just because it's a job and that I need to feed myself. Life to me in the past 4 years have been really good - I had the good fortune to experience different places, food and people. Got to see how fucked-up places and people can be and yet at the same time, I got see how great total strangers can be.
Before 30, I was trying to live in dream land. One movie made me waked up my ideas - "The 40 Year Virgin".
And over the last 2 years, I changed my objectives. Guess adolescence came to me pretty late and it's time for me to shake off any notions of a romance like one will see in either movies or books.
And of course the realization that a true relationship involves both parties reciprocating. If only 1 party wants to be loved without loving unconditionally or is loving unconditionally without being loved, all I can say is that both parties are in self-denial.And there's one that is a selfish bastard that wants to have another person by their side while they keep on looking for a better choice - assholes! And somehow I think the best places to look for these people are the clubs.
While my search continues as I strive to break out of my broken dreams (darn! if only things are like in the books!), I'm glad to say that a lot of me mates are tying the knot this year and a few are getting hitched or in the process of doing so.