and a few days to go...
...to college!
Don't know what to do about that. I've been all over the place for container things, coffee makers, and just a whole lot of stuff. Serious organization tomorrow. Just not right now, am I still in a sort of denial? Can't quite tell.
Nantucket was good and well, enjoyable. I made a set of boxes, a chair and a whole lot of food. Lots of good things happened, lot's of funny things happened. Along with the few odd things.
And this is odd and sort of out of topic but really, deception is a terrible thing and the person you end up hurting is the person you wanted to fool and hopefully, if you have any sort of moral center, you end up hurting too. But just...I don't know, don't do it! It isn't nice, it isn't polite and if the person who was deceived figures it out, well they're not going to like you when you show your face.
And on that note, another thing that's odd is the sick satisfaction that people get when there's some sort of argument, and they hold out to the point of the other person giving in first and asking for a truce of sorts. It's weird and I'm not sure I like it unless it really applies to the situation (and I feel that there are a few select ones where it's kinda ok).
And friendship truces.
If it's over something trivial, that's great. Go ahead, make up and you're all alright. No feelings hurt, right?
Over something serious, well, I still haven't figured that out. If you goddamned believe in what you said that started the whole tense situation you won't apologize for it, right? Why would you? If you believe you're right, even after you've reviewed the facts over and over again and it is your thought and not someone else's influence, then why should you apologize for it? You apologize for possibly hurting the person's feelings or whatnot, but it makes sense not to apologize for what you think is right. Right?
And back to the truces, if something did crop up in the middle of a friendship, how do you know that it isn't just some freak accident and it isn't what is supposed to happen. By that I mean maybe it was fated, predestined. Whatever the hell you want to call it, but what if you're both better off for what happened? Even if it was nasty and cruel? Isn't the truce then just both people not believing that maybe they just aren't right being together as friends?
Give out the blame and take some.
And somehow it always feels that you've taken much more then your share. More like it's been forcibly shoved on you.
And how should I feel when I look back on the last eight months of my schooling and realize that it was never what I thought it was going to be, granted I had no idea what it should be like, but to have hoped for something so hard and then nothing happens...well, it's like the rug was pulled out from under you and after all this time, you've finally fallen smack down onto the floor.
But I think it's just been that I moved on, and any mess left behind is just there. It's never going to vanish because that's physically impossible, but you can do a damn good job ignoring it.
Time for some sleep.
Don't know what to do about that. I've been all over the place for container things, coffee makers, and just a whole lot of stuff. Serious organization tomorrow. Just not right now, am I still in a sort of denial? Can't quite tell.
Nantucket was good and well, enjoyable. I made a set of boxes, a chair and a whole lot of food. Lots of good things happened, lot's of funny things happened. Along with the few odd things.
And this is odd and sort of out of topic but really, deception is a terrible thing and the person you end up hurting is the person you wanted to fool and hopefully, if you have any sort of moral center, you end up hurting too. But just...I don't know, don't do it! It isn't nice, it isn't polite and if the person who was deceived figures it out, well they're not going to like you when you show your face.
And on that note, another thing that's odd is the sick satisfaction that people get when there's some sort of argument, and they hold out to the point of the other person giving in first and asking for a truce of sorts. It's weird and I'm not sure I like it unless it really applies to the situation (and I feel that there are a few select ones where it's kinda ok).
And friendship truces.
If it's over something trivial, that's great. Go ahead, make up and you're all alright. No feelings hurt, right?
Over something serious, well, I still haven't figured that out. If you goddamned believe in what you said that started the whole tense situation you won't apologize for it, right? Why would you? If you believe you're right, even after you've reviewed the facts over and over again and it is your thought and not someone else's influence, then why should you apologize for it? You apologize for possibly hurting the person's feelings or whatnot, but it makes sense not to apologize for what you think is right. Right?
And back to the truces, if something did crop up in the middle of a friendship, how do you know that it isn't just some freak accident and it isn't what is supposed to happen. By that I mean maybe it was fated, predestined. Whatever the hell you want to call it, but what if you're both better off for what happened? Even if it was nasty and cruel? Isn't the truce then just both people not believing that maybe they just aren't right being together as friends?
Give out the blame and take some.
And somehow it always feels that you've taken much more then your share. More like it's been forcibly shoved on you.
And how should I feel when I look back on the last eight months of my schooling and realize that it was never what I thought it was going to be, granted I had no idea what it should be like, but to have hoped for something so hard and then nothing happens...well, it's like the rug was pulled out from under you and after all this time, you've finally fallen smack down onto the floor.
But I think it's just been that I moved on, and any mess left behind is just there. It's never going to vanish because that's physically impossible, but you can do a damn good job ignoring it.
Time for some sleep.