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I hate everyone.
Right now. With total and complete lack of love.
I want to just it to be this thing that I can break, smash, shatter however many times I want to.
I am sick of my inability. I hate it and I hate everything that goes with it.
Everything is going to shit. Really, just everything.
The world could go up in flames right now and I'd still hate it.
All those nasty feelings that come along with being stood up, with being let down, with being betrayed, with being shoved aside by someone you love for something they think is better - all of that, it's just all over me right now and I hate everything.
Absolutely freaking everything.
When people need something, about 85% of the time, maybe more than 90%, I have it.
When I need something? I may as well run headlong through a top floor window let gravity do its job.
Dammit. Just damn. What does it take around here?
Right now. With total and complete lack of love.
I want to just it to be this thing that I can break, smash, shatter however many times I want to.
I am sick of my inability. I hate it and I hate everything that goes with it.
Everything is going to shit. Really, just everything.
The world could go up in flames right now and I'd still hate it.
All those nasty feelings that come along with being stood up, with being let down, with being betrayed, with being shoved aside by someone you love for something they think is better - all of that, it's just all over me right now and I hate everything.
Absolutely freaking everything.
When people need something, about 85% of the time, maybe more than 90%, I have it.
When I need something? I may as well run headlong through a top floor window let gravity do its job.
Dammit. Just damn. What does it take around here?