Well, not being angry and just being numb about it would only mean not being true to myself and being a hypocrite while swallowing the bitter pill right? That would even poison me more as i have become what i do not want to become...a fake two face person who doesn't even realize the facade of being a fake.
Well, the person in question looks like a butch and it doesn't seem to trouble her.
Guess what, just today, she just made my life even harder...
Anyway the demons would devour her soul and robbing every pixel of color she has ever had in her life and the phantoms of all her dark and evil deeds and pain and anger everyone ever had on her will surround her in the darkness of the nether realm. It is here that her regrets, dissapointments, fears, envy, and sorrow would drown her. Stripping every atom of what filth she has left.
Her loneliness would purge her of whatever hope she has left. Wiping clean her slate and drowning her in the sea of disillusiontment that was done by her own making in this lifetime. All the ghosts of the past will resurface and would make her feel thirsty but have naught to drink, hungry but have not food to drink, fearful but have naught a voice to shout.
Then the demons would take colour away and the colors of her life would just be like distant memories that appear vague like dreams that can never transcend to reality. Then her perception of truth and untruth would be shattered and a lost soul she would be...Wandering, alone, with all the lingering demons of the past surrounding her as she tries and make her way in the dark with no beacons of light.
Hmmm writing such things can be pretty thereupathic. I think i can be the next Neil Gaiman. Off to do her dirty work. *grumbles*
Then what should I do when I face the same person every week? I really wanted to leave the group but have been doing the same holding on... Earlier this week when i heard with my own ears what they have been bad mouthing about me plus they work they are giving me even when i have an exam tomw while they do less work just makes me think that such a person does not deserve any form of mercy.
I have been compassionate to have done the work assigned. I just completed the work. Let her do the sorting out. 3 pages full of text. I could have turned a blind eye and go about my studies but I did what I did.
She has been doing this to me and my friend in the same group. We can't do much really. Just to swallow the pill and wait for graduation.
I have still one month and one whole semester to bear with it.
If she'd just leave me and my friend alone and let me do my things in peace, I would do the same. But if she wants to do things behind my back and use that against me, thats just untoleratable.
Its not hatred. Its just due repentance. Its what she is made of and what she deserves.
If there is anyone you have to be sad of, its her...I did my best to avoid her and only interact when absolutely nessesary. Held my peace for 3 years. But what is going on now is just too much...
I can't believe that I am still being compassionate and doing the work or even sticking around the group.
Ah....being bullied. If i was stronger I would have just given her a piece of my mind.
But alas, i think she doesn't like me and she knows that the feeling is mutual :)
Have you tried talking to her? Sounds simplistic but it might actually work. ;-) If you don't feel like you're strong enough, bring in a neutral person to help control things.
By doing what she wants, you are allowing her to bully you. It seems like you have some control over the situation, you're just not taking that control.
I don't know what she "deserves". I'm pretty sure only God knows that. ;-)
That would even poison me more as i have become what i do not want to become...a fake two face person who doesn't even realize the facade of being a fake.
Well, the person in question looks like a butch and it doesn't seem to trouble her.
Guess what, just today, she just made my life even harder...
Anyway the demons would devour her soul and robbing every pixel of color she has ever had in her life and the phantoms of all her dark and evil deeds and pain and anger everyone ever had on her will surround her in the darkness of the nether realm. It is here that her regrets, dissapointments, fears, envy, and sorrow would drown her. Stripping every atom of what filth she has left.
Her loneliness would purge her of whatever hope she has left. Wiping clean her slate and drowning her in the sea of disillusiontment that was done by her own making in this lifetime.
All the ghosts of the past will resurface and would make her feel thirsty but have naught to drink, hungry but have not food to drink, fearful but have naught a voice to shout.
Then the demons would take colour away and the colors of her life would just be like distant memories that appear vague like dreams that can never transcend to reality. Then her perception of truth and untruth would be shattered and a lost soul she would be...Wandering, alone, with all the lingering demons of the past surrounding her as she tries and make her way in the dark with no beacons of light.
Hmmm writing such things can be pretty thereupathic. I think i can be the next Neil Gaiman. Off to do her dirty work. *grumbles*
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Earlier this week when i heard with my own ears what they have been bad mouthing about me plus they work they are giving me even when i have an exam tomw while they do less work just makes me think that such a person does not deserve any form of mercy.
I have been compassionate to have done the work assigned. I just completed the work. Let her do the sorting out. 3 pages full of text. I could have turned a blind eye and go about my studies but I did what I did.
She has been doing this to me and my friend in the same group. We can't do much really. Just to swallow the pill and wait for graduation.
I have still one month and one whole semester to bear with it.
If she'd just leave me and my friend alone and let me do my things in peace, I would do the same. But if she wants to do things behind my back and use that against me, thats just untoleratable.
Its not hatred. Its just due repentance. Its what she is made of and what she deserves.
If there is anyone you have to be sad of, its her...I did my best to avoid her and only interact when absolutely nessesary. Held my peace for 3 years. But what is going on now is just too much...
I can't believe that I am still being compassionate and doing the work or even sticking around the group.
Ah....being bullied. If i was stronger I would have just given her a piece of my mind.
But alas, i think she doesn't like me and she knows that the feeling is mutual :)
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By doing what she wants, you are allowing her to bully you. It seems like you have some control over the situation, you're just not taking that control.
I don't know what she "deserves". I'm pretty sure only God knows that. ;-)
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Most people are afraid of Miss Queen Control. Btw her initials are E.T.
Kinda apt for such a person/being.
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