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I don't know even if anyone reads this anymore but Im updating on this one in hopes noone does read this.
Im sad right now. Im not sure what Im supposed to do. I mean I think I know what Im supposed to do in life now. I just don't know how too do it. CRU (campus crusades for christ) usually makes me really happy! It mad me sad today. Im stuck. I don't know who to talk to. I don't want to talk to any of my friends on campus and I don't think anyone outside of school wants to hear my spiritual crisises. I don't know what too do. Like Brandon said tonight that we'll always have a friend in Jesus but I don't know how to talk to him. I want to go to Solla Sollew and stay there. I almost feel like e-mailing Matt and asking him but Im afraid. Im also really afraid to tell my parents. My dad will understand more than my mom. Actually mom won't understand at all cause she's an effing hypocrite. *tears* I don't know what to do except suffer in silence for now.
Im sad right now. Im not sure what Im supposed to do. I mean I think I know what Im supposed to do in life now. I just don't know how too do it. CRU (campus crusades for christ) usually makes me really happy! It mad me sad today. Im stuck. I don't know who to talk to. I don't want to talk to any of my friends on campus and I don't think anyone outside of school wants to hear my spiritual crisises. I don't know what too do. Like Brandon said tonight that we'll always have a friend in Jesus but I don't know how to talk to him. I want to go to Solla Sollew and stay there. I almost feel like e-mailing Matt and asking him but Im afraid. Im also really afraid to tell my parents. My dad will understand more than my mom. Actually mom won't understand at all cause she's an effing hypocrite. *tears* I don't know what to do except suffer in silence for now.