Falling Apart

[sideways_heart]

I am really lost. I honestly don't think that you are supposed to be this lost at seventeen. the only thing that i am truly sure of right now, is the fact that i am a grade-A, first-class screw-up. it's like my thing; it's what i'm good at. it's my life's calling. i literally have screwed up everything. i screwed up my grades in high school,

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[konfusion87]

OY is the first thing i have to say to this long entry of yours... fist off Dont kill yourself beacuse theres no way to bring you back and it may seem like a good idea as of now BUT its a permanint fix to a temporary situation corny statment as it may seem but its true. Second Lots of people dont know what they want to do when they graduation. my sister doesnt. and if u dont get in to the college of your choice it truly isnt the end of the world. Yeah rejection sucks. So what you could do is go to a commmunity college for 2 years bring up your GPA and when your there u may figure out just what it is that you want. But thats only a suggestion you dont have to do that. And i know what you mean about have freinds help you with school work for some reason it doesnt mix. Because usually they make u more confused then u started out, thats when u say you know what i got it thanks (even if you dont got it ) As for James.... It sucks that you guys are no longer together. Im not saying move on beacuse its not that easy. and its totally ok to mope break out the Ben and Jerrys if need be. But dont look it as a total loss and dont keep looking back and trying to see where you went wrong or how it could have been better beacuse those little imprefects or quirks if you will are going to drive you crazy. Just look back at the good stuff and soon enought someone will be there that you meet and James will be just a memory. In short from this very long comment its ok to be confused. Things will start look up when you least expect them to. Feel Better

[sideways_heart]

thanks... that really made me feel better... i've just been really depressed the last week or so.. needed to geth all that junk off of my chest. i cry all the time; for no reason. like the other night at dinner, mom asked me if i wanted rice with my damn chicken, and i just started balling my eyes out, and i couldn't explain why... they's put me in an institution-lol...

but seriously... thank you....

....mmmmm..... wise words of Yoda

[konfusion87]

it happens... np on the advice anytime