ramble ramble ramble

[sidewayfeelings]

the apartment is so lonely right now.
i missed him the second i closed the door
when he left this morning.
my chest feels so heavy.

i hope the seventeenth comes soon.
it almost feels like old times.
i've got that yearning back.
for a while at least.

i'm a little confused about some
of the situations in my life.
i feel like the wrong decision
the wrong words
the wrong move
will be chaotic and destructful.

(sounds exciting huh?
like a bond movie,
not the red wire!!)

anyway, back on topic:
i have two options:
fuck it.
fight it.

either really gets me nowhere.

also, i finally saw reservoir dogs.
and i have to say:
what.a.let.down.
i didn't feel seduced enough.
sure, they were badasses,
but where was the magic tarantino?
really.

some metrosexual left me his phone number
with a sideways smiley on a comment card at work,
but failed to leave me a tip.
what the fuck man?
how can you hit on a waitress, then don't tip them?
seriously.

i've been watching far too much sifl and olly lately.
it's warping my brain.
sock puppets everywhere i look.
and corny rock covers stuck in my head
while i try to go to sleep.

"fake blooooood, you scare me like the real thing
but if you were the reaaal thing,
you'd scare me mooooooreeee yeaaah yeaaaahhh"

ridiculous.

this felt good.