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I've never experienced this kind of loneliness in my life. Aren't I a person worth knowing? I have no idea how to make friends here. Five days alone with a couple trips to the grocery store or pharmacy to punctuate the monotony... I cling to every interaction I can. Salespeople must think I'm crazy.
I imagine going to a bar downtown and making friends... But then I remember they will only be men that want to sleep with me.
Walking down the street, does anybody know how alone I am? Can they sense how badly I crave human contact? Maybe it radiates off of me.
Every day I have a headache. The pressure on my temples is there from the moment I wake up until the moment I fall asleep. My nights are riddled with tossing and turning. The cat always disturbs me around dawn... but there are no dreams to interrupt.
Paradise is so cruel. The sun shines without fail. The mountains loom overhead... taunting me incessantly. "Come climb me," they seem to sneer, knowing my anxiety and fear keep me weak and grounded.
There's no escape.
I imagine going to a bar downtown and making friends... But then I remember they will only be men that want to sleep with me.
Walking down the street, does anybody know how alone I am? Can they sense how badly I crave human contact? Maybe it radiates off of me.
Every day I have a headache. The pressure on my temples is there from the moment I wake up until the moment I fall asleep. My nights are riddled with tossing and turning. The cat always disturbs me around dawn... but there are no dreams to interrupt.
Paradise is so cruel. The sun shines without fail. The mountains loom overhead... taunting me incessantly. "Come climb me," they seem to sneer, knowing my anxiety and fear keep me weak and grounded.
There's no escape.