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My nan's been really ill over the past two years. A few times we've thought she won't make it, but she's pulled through. Now it's a bit different though, it's almost definitely coming. She's completely accepted it, and as my mother says 'she just wants to go to sleep, and not have to wake up'.
I'm really angry with myself that I haven't seen her in so long. Not seen her since before Christmas, as I've been at Uni, and not really hearing about what's going on. I could have gone today but I was at Ruth's house, or in the pub. Fuck.
She's always totally on my level, and I've had so many good times with her. I'm happy that she is happy as she is, and that she is without fear. She requested some gin tonight from my dad, she's 'going out fighting', my mum said.
It's so odd to be waiting for something like this.
I'm really angry with myself that I haven't seen her in so long. Not seen her since before Christmas, as I've been at Uni, and not really hearing about what's going on. I could have gone today but I was at Ruth's house, or in the pub. Fuck.
She's always totally on my level, and I've had so many good times with her. I'm happy that she is happy as she is, and that she is without fear. She requested some gin tonight from my dad, she's 'going out fighting', my mum said.
It's so odd to be waiting for something like this.