I need to be done with this...
I'm tired of being the butt of everyone's jokes. I'm sick of being called a pussy everytime I try to be the responsible one, and a jackass by the same people when I'm not.
I hate the person that I've become since coming to college. Plain and simple.
I hate all the incessant bitching that goes on around me all the time. And I'm sorry for how hypocritical that really is on my part (this post being a giant bitch in itself). I hate that the one person who I talk to regularly who doesn't bitch has become the person I bitch to the most. Again, I hate the person I've become.
I hate that I'm probably destroying a friendship the same way I did with Hillary a few years ago.
I took my Xanax for the first time in almost a two and a half years. And then I realized that the break down episode that got me started on that to begin with happened 3 years ago today.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm a terrible teacher, and I don't know what to do now.
I need to be done with college and out of this place.
I hate the person that I've become since coming to college. Plain and simple.
I hate all the incessant bitching that goes on around me all the time. And I'm sorry for how hypocritical that really is on my part (this post being a giant bitch in itself). I hate that the one person who I talk to regularly who doesn't bitch has become the person I bitch to the most. Again, I hate the person I've become.
I hate that I'm probably destroying a friendship the same way I did with Hillary a few years ago.
I took my Xanax for the first time in almost a two and a half years. And then I realized that the break down episode that got me started on that to begin with happened 3 years ago today.
I've come to the conclusion that I'm a terrible teacher, and I don't know what to do now.
I need to be done with college and out of this place.