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went to lilys and talked; ate half baked [ben and jerry]; watched the wall. it made me happy, to have company and comfort. i felt very secure and it kept my mind off mike. i am beginning to realize that hanging on him isn't the answer. when i got back mike had called 3 times and had left a message. he wants to hang out tomorrow. things are looking up. seeing lily smile and laugh made me feel better too. we are being strong about this. but of course we are still screaming inside. [lily i saw matt was online and called to tell you, no one picked up, then i asked matt if he talked to you and he said im on the phone with her right now and i laughed]. yes so i got home and called mike back we talked like good friends, it was nice. i said to him "you're so stupid" because i used to always say that to him when we were together, i couldnt help it it's a habbit, and we both laughed. then i asked him if i could punch him as hard as i can tomorrow and he said yes. i cannot wait. i am fine and shall resist hugging and kissing him. because just seeing him is enough for me. sigh. oh mike <3 i hope this content mood will not end. because i am fine with content over happy.