Jan 03, 2007 18:52
I am sooo lonely.
I was supposed to be hanging out with Brandon today. But his parents are being asses so I prolly won;t get to see him till closer to this weekend. and because of various and assorted things we can't talk on the phone. And we only have this week to really hang out before classes start again. And because of tooth removal and me going home for Christmas, we ahve hardly seen each other at all this break. And I miss him. Alot.
*pouts*
And I have to find an extra job to help pay for rent, cause the stables just isn't paying enough. And I had hours cut back. So another job it is. But I don;t wanna have to leave the stables. I love it there and I love working with the horses and most of the kids. And I was thinking about maybe becoming a certified instructor. I just need to figure out how. And I prolly need to stay at the stables to do that. But two jobs plus school is gonna be alot...so the stables might have to go...and I don;t wanna leave...
And I miss people. I miss my family. Especially my Dad. I want ot have my family around. But I want to have my Brandon too. If I didn;t have him, I would probably move to Florida with my family. I miss having close friends around. I have no reall close friends here except for Brandon. Portia and Holly live to fricken far away. Yeah I get along with Kristy, but sometimes I am under the impression that she really just kinda tolerates me because we get along decently well. Not because I am someone nifty to hang out with.
Sometime I get the impression that if I just disappeared from here (Savannah) only Brandon and Mrs. Carol would miss me. Wich makes me sad. And depressed.
I guess I am just not happy right now. I feel awful. I think I need a hug and some magic answers...