it hurts to hold your tounge
wow. yea. i dont know. im sitting in my room... its memorial day weekend and im all alone.... uggh..
yesterday i chill w/ ken. that was cool. but it made me think too much of my ex (not like i dont think of him 24/7 anyways) and he let me borrow his brad paisley cd. i had fun. it was goood seeing him again. but i wish i had seen my ex too.
after that mike came over and he was all depressed all nite. and i felt soo bad. its all my fault hes like this. but yea what am i supposed to do??? Like this guy is madly inlove with me and im just like "yea.. your cool but A. i love my ex and B. i will let you down & i will make you hurt" eventhhough those words could never leave my lips. i just cant tell him... cuz that will hurt him soo much and i dont want to loose his friendship. uggh.
then today mike came over and then i ended up really upset and im not sure why. and that got him super mad. he ended up trying to cut himself with my knife but hes doesnt press hard enough to get my knife to cut (its really dull) then he got more pissed at me and left. I think he went and got a tattoo, now hes going to the divinity show. i was invited but idk im not in the mood to go...
i dont have anymore to say at the moment... >.
yesterday i chill w/ ken. that was cool. but it made me think too much of my ex (not like i dont think of him 24/7 anyways) and he let me borrow his brad paisley cd. i had fun. it was goood seeing him again. but i wish i had seen my ex too.
after that mike came over and he was all depressed all nite. and i felt soo bad. its all my fault hes like this. but yea what am i supposed to do??? Like this guy is madly inlove with me and im just like "yea.. your cool but A. i love my ex and B. i will let you down & i will make you hurt" eventhhough those words could never leave my lips. i just cant tell him... cuz that will hurt him soo much and i dont want to loose his friendship. uggh.
then today mike came over and then i ended up really upset and im not sure why. and that got him super mad. he ended up trying to cut himself with my knife but hes doesnt press hard enough to get my knife to cut (its really dull) then he got more pissed at me and left. I think he went and got a tattoo, now hes going to the divinity show. i was invited but idk im not in the mood to go...
i dont have anymore to say at the moment... >.