Hiding in estrogen and boys will be boys. Hiding in estrogen and wearing Aubergine dreams.

Jul 16, 2006 11:51

Song of the Moment: Panic! at the Disco - Time to Dance

You can't ever force anyone to grow up but yet you shouldn't have to wait to grow up because you need to. You should do it because you want to and is best for you. Granted, there is no real definition of what growing up entails, but for the most part, I think immaturity is blatant with a lot of people.

I know there are plenty of things for me to work on but I do try and it is starting to show. Some people are hand-fed while having their hand held (not literally of course) their whole lives, but when they are 18 years and older, it's not something to be celebrating about. I wasn't one of those kids that had everything done for them. I was fairly independent during my years as a minor which is something I value in my life today. When you are given everything and have everything done for you by your parents, you tend to have a personality that needs everything done on your time and your schedule. I don't like people who are constantly on their time wanting things done because it is for them. It is exactly the kind of person that I don't like to be around much but yet one of my "best friends" is that kind of person.

I think Rahil, Renan, and I were kind of thrown together and forced to be best friends because we were all Filipino, all highly intelligent by highschool standards, and all our names started with R. Granted, I am very happy to be friends with these two guys but we are so different in so many ways. Our diversity is one reason why we do get along so well but sometimes I think it is the one thing that keeps us apart. As Renan and I start to mature more and more everyday, it almost kills me that the other still lags behind.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a parent when I'm around him. I have to tell him to not do this and to not do that. I don't act like that way around anyone else. I have to balance between me being a jackass to him and him being an idiot around everyone else. I am my most stressed when he is around which is sad because he's supposed to be one of my "best friends".

Best friends grow together, make mistakes together, and learn together. It is only when one brings another down is when I need to reevaluate this relationship.

I need to realize that some people change for the better or worse and that if I need to be at my most productive and happy, I need to move on with my life. If some people choose to keep up, then that would be great, if not then I'll see them in the after life.

Yours Truly, Chito

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