It has finally dawned upon me.

[sickwing]

I will never be as likeable as my ex. I will never be half of her.
I will probably never see a glimpse of the privilege that awaits at her door.

I will probably never win the approval of my family

They will probably never see my abilities and talents.

I will never possess the intuitively charismatic comicality my sister so confidently delivers.

I will never be satisfied with who I am. Without them I am nothing.

Without these people, I am no one. I have no community.

I want to die sometimes, and I am embarrassed most of the other time of how I turned out.

My aunt just called.