HeRe U crazy Hoe.. Haha

Aug 16, 2004 01:22

I am not quite sure who made this strong comment in my live journal, BUT I guess you think you know me huh? And, you obviously don't. There is ONE person in this world who really knows me. Maybe two at the Most, and those two people would NEVER comment in a journal. The other one, fucked me over so bad. Just like everyone else in this world. Those two don't even know what these are, b/c they're boys.

It's very nice of you to be concerned and all, but you don't have to be. You see, I go in and out of moods. I always, always have. My father is a manac depressant and the doctor says it's possible I have those genes in me. Though, I throughly am against taking medication for such a silly "condition". I simply was sad last night as a result of being mighty tired.

Now, I know you must have thought you were being great giving me advice and all, but all you have done is simply frightened and upset me. Truly, this is because, apparently, you think you are a friend of mine. If you are one of the many you may be, it scares me. I do not want anything to do with someone who lets someone harrass me, and still supports their evil side.

Everyone gets into emo moods. And I have diaries from years and years back proving that I have ALWAYS wanted to be a stripper, so there goes your "Wow, you've changed a ton theory..." I hae even wrote stories about it. It's a silly fantasy, but I love it. And of course, I am confident. If you must know, I always feel fat and gross when I a menstrating, but thanks for your time and "Concern" There's your reason for me being all crappy about myself.

Your big words and views about me were very impressing I might say. I have indeed been through a lot. And god knows, only one person has been here for me, and there you go, putting me and them down. If it were not for this journal, work, my sisters and my lover, I might not be here writing today. Life just sucks sometimes. Apparently, you haven't been around me to see what's been going on. (And you have probably done jack shit to help it also "friend") I would never ever take my own life. There is so much left to live. And yes, I have battled a lot, and continue too. Where did it say I was giving up? Plus, I bet you never go to sleep at night horrified by the many days you were made fun of, and for the disgusting things that were said to you for 8 years because you were huge and had a large forehead huh? I bet you were either a dancer or a cheerleader, and you loved the attention. Yeah, I never had that. I didn't think it was a crime to wish I will have some attention (And fun money) somewhere in the future.

Well, I thank you for ruining my privacy and my journal life, because now, my name will be changed, and no one will read this at all. And just in case you were wondering, this is the happiest I have been in years (My family will back this up) and I have a few to thank for it. I can definitly and CONFIDENTLY say, that you, were nowhere near amoung the many. Thanks again.

P.S.- it sucks to be someone who won't even tell me who they are. You obviously weren't that concerned, but now, I am.
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