The day is miserable and so am I.
(Sorry Gretch, this is your warning of emotional suckiness, so BEWARE)
I am absolutely miserable right now. Everything, and I really mean EVERYTHING in my life just fucking sucks right now. I just lost one of the people closest to me in my life. Why? you ask? He wanted to fuck other people. That's all. He cares about me and everything like that, but he was only with me because he felt obligated to...at least for the past month or two or more for all I know. I forced him to tell me, and he did. I got what I wanted. Joy. I really feel like I can let it go now. I'm sick of it all, and with everything else in my life, I can't let it bother me too much. I just can't.
So, my jobs suck and I have absolutely no money and most likely wont for a long while. I'm working my ass off and I still have to pay all of my bills late, and it's not like I go out and spend my money partying or anything. I do NOTHING. I am the most boring person ever, and poor to boot.
My mother seems to be going off the deep end again...she's getting worse, and I'm really worried about her. It's making me sick and I have no idea how to help her anymore.
My brother is moving to New Jersey on Thursday, and I don't know what to do about that. I will miss him a whole lot, and I don't think I'm really dealing with it yet.
I still have my friends, I love you all very much, but I've also been out of the loop for so long that I don't know what is going on with anyone anymore. I'm am going to start forcing myself to go out and call people and all kinds of things, so hopefully I will see some of you soon.
I am absolutely miserable right now. Everything, and I really mean EVERYTHING in my life just fucking sucks right now. I just lost one of the people closest to me in my life. Why? you ask? He wanted to fuck other people. That's all. He cares about me and everything like that, but he was only with me because he felt obligated to...at least for the past month or two or more for all I know. I forced him to tell me, and he did. I got what I wanted. Joy. I really feel like I can let it go now. I'm sick of it all, and with everything else in my life, I can't let it bother me too much. I just can't.
So, my jobs suck and I have absolutely no money and most likely wont for a long while. I'm working my ass off and I still have to pay all of my bills late, and it's not like I go out and spend my money partying or anything. I do NOTHING. I am the most boring person ever, and poor to boot.
My mother seems to be going off the deep end again...she's getting worse, and I'm really worried about her. It's making me sick and I have no idea how to help her anymore.
My brother is moving to New Jersey on Thursday, and I don't know what to do about that. I will miss him a whole lot, and I don't think I'm really dealing with it yet.
I still have my friends, I love you all very much, but I've also been out of the loop for so long that I don't know what is going on with anyone anymore. I'm am going to start forcing myself to go out and call people and all kinds of things, so hopefully I will see some of you soon.