just a lil rant (a real fucking update holy shit!)
well i havent updated in a while really, not a real update anyways, just shit that goes on at the shop.
Recently my mother has made effort at beating her addiction. She's in rehab right now and so far has done 2 weeks clean. she called me the other night while we were closing up at the shop and was telling me all thats going on, how she's sorry for all the pain she caused.
i apologized for some of my more assholish things i've done to her lately but she said it was ok, she couldn't see it then, but she see's now that it was a form of tough love, that i had to be an asshole in order for her to see what a problem she had. i told her i was proud of her for actually going through with this, it's going to be 6 months up to a year before she's out of there completely. i made a deal with her, when she can spend a year clean, when she beats this habit she's gotten, i'm going to do a tattoo for her. she wants a fairy, so i've been drawing one up. i'm not totally happy with it but it's in progress. when she spends that time clean i'll tattoo it for her, that way she has something that was designed by her daughter and done by her daughter. the fairy is a bit of the cliche "spreading your wings" kinda symbol.
and as much as i've bad mouthed my mother during this time with her habit, i am proud of her for wanting to clean up, doing it for herself, and trying to get back on the right path. and i do hope this works.
anyways, life at the shop is going good. i'm getting more volunteers but still need more, so remember me when you think of getting a tattoo. ummm....yeah
been listening to the new staind song "Right Here"....goddamn i love aaron lewis' voice. kinda unpolished, decently deep. it has a certain something to it that i just can't place. damnit. and the song just reminds me of things, i find i like songs better when i can connect to them, but i believe most people are like that.
so yeah, can't complain. getting out, going places, seeing things, meeting new people. got the job i've always wanted even though it isnt paying out just yet i dont care, i'd do this for free over any other well paying job i would hate. got my eyes checked out, going for my learners in the near future...yup. i'm content as of the moment where my life is. mostly drama free, on the road to better living...i finally feel like all these years of bullshit weren't for nothing.
and if no one else is going to be happy for me, then i'm perfectly fine just being happy for myself.
Recently my mother has made effort at beating her addiction. She's in rehab right now and so far has done 2 weeks clean. she called me the other night while we were closing up at the shop and was telling me all thats going on, how she's sorry for all the pain she caused.
i apologized for some of my more assholish things i've done to her lately but she said it was ok, she couldn't see it then, but she see's now that it was a form of tough love, that i had to be an asshole in order for her to see what a problem she had. i told her i was proud of her for actually going through with this, it's going to be 6 months up to a year before she's out of there completely. i made a deal with her, when she can spend a year clean, when she beats this habit she's gotten, i'm going to do a tattoo for her. she wants a fairy, so i've been drawing one up. i'm not totally happy with it but it's in progress. when she spends that time clean i'll tattoo it for her, that way she has something that was designed by her daughter and done by her daughter. the fairy is a bit of the cliche "spreading your wings" kinda symbol.
and as much as i've bad mouthed my mother during this time with her habit, i am proud of her for wanting to clean up, doing it for herself, and trying to get back on the right path. and i do hope this works.
anyways, life at the shop is going good. i'm getting more volunteers but still need more, so remember me when you think of getting a tattoo. ummm....yeah
been listening to the new staind song "Right Here"....goddamn i love aaron lewis' voice. kinda unpolished, decently deep. it has a certain something to it that i just can't place. damnit. and the song just reminds me of things, i find i like songs better when i can connect to them, but i believe most people are like that.
so yeah, can't complain. getting out, going places, seeing things, meeting new people. got the job i've always wanted even though it isnt paying out just yet i dont care, i'd do this for free over any other well paying job i would hate. got my eyes checked out, going for my learners in the near future...yup. i'm content as of the moment where my life is. mostly drama free, on the road to better living...i finally feel like all these years of bullshit weren't for nothing.
and if no one else is going to be happy for me, then i'm perfectly fine just being happy for myself.