Holding on to What?
I feel really really really pretty awful. The surprise is, this time it's physical. I've lost the ability-- or maybe just the willingness-- to sleep at night. I can't do it anymore. I can only sleep while the sun is up, and even that I do very little. I think I've been averaging only a couple hours a day.
It's been more than a month that I've been coughing now. The doctor says it's a sinus infection. I'm on my second batch of antibiotics, but I don't have much hope for these either. Theatrics notwithstanding, I’m not so sure my body is fighting it.
On the other hand, my stomach is building up a resistance to the constant Ibuprofen I’m shoveling. It’s sort of disheartening. I don’t think my supplements are helping at all. I wanted my blood to have the constancy of water by now.
Last night I left the house to be alone in my car for a while. I ended up putting a couple hundred miles on it. I just started driving north, and a few times I doubted I would stop at all. I almost made it out of the state before I finally turned around. I don't know where I thought I was going.
It's been more than a month that I've been coughing now. The doctor says it's a sinus infection. I'm on my second batch of antibiotics, but I don't have much hope for these either. Theatrics notwithstanding, I’m not so sure my body is fighting it.
On the other hand, my stomach is building up a resistance to the constant Ibuprofen I’m shoveling. It’s sort of disheartening. I don’t think my supplements are helping at all. I wanted my blood to have the constancy of water by now.
Last night I left the house to be alone in my car for a while. I ended up putting a couple hundred miles on it. I just started driving north, and a few times I doubted I would stop at all. I almost made it out of the state before I finally turned around. I don't know where I thought I was going.