"...It's more a case of haves against haven'ts."
have't been feeling so hot recently.
i guess most of it was resulting from some emotional turnoil with my once close friend, Juni. last night we had a long conversation about a lot of crap. and even though we supposedly "cleared the air"... i'm still left feeling very much removed. it all was very much history repeated itself with an old best friend of mine... Geoffry. (a year and 1/2 ago, i was writing about it in this here journal to some extent) obviously, i've learned and grown from the horrible experience of a best friend abandoning me.
and i'm DAMN smart enough not to set myself up for the same situation yet again.
i don't need friends who make me feel or treat me like shit. (ditching me, ignoring me in person, making me feel 2nd rate...) i'm not into the fact that he dwells upon my past failed relationships with mutual friends, drunken blunders and insecurities to the current day. i can do that enough on my own already.
oh well. we hang out tomorrow night to do some art. and to further my interactions with the creative individuals of NYC. onward and upward. :/
i've added a slew of new people to my friends list to gain new insights by reading about the lives of strangers. and i'm enjoying the enteries very much! even if i haven't been generous with my commenting... thank you. :)
the last couple weekends Duane has spend some time at my new apartment. we are so comfortable and relaxed around each other, it's really wonderful. we are totally of the same seed.
i guess this is all i had to post about.
p.s.
a couple of nights ago, AJ left me a message. she told me that Geoffry wanted to speak with me again. what timing. it's funny how life comes full circle. i still don't know what to think.
i guess most of it was resulting from some emotional turnoil with my once close friend, Juni. last night we had a long conversation about a lot of crap. and even though we supposedly "cleared the air"... i'm still left feeling very much removed. it all was very much history repeated itself with an old best friend of mine... Geoffry. (a year and 1/2 ago, i was writing about it in this here journal to some extent) obviously, i've learned and grown from the horrible experience of a best friend abandoning me.
and i'm DAMN smart enough not to set myself up for the same situation yet again.
i don't need friends who make me feel or treat me like shit. (ditching me, ignoring me in person, making me feel 2nd rate...) i'm not into the fact that he dwells upon my past failed relationships with mutual friends, drunken blunders and insecurities to the current day. i can do that enough on my own already.
oh well. we hang out tomorrow night to do some art. and to further my interactions with the creative individuals of NYC. onward and upward. :/
i've added a slew of new people to my friends list to gain new insights by reading about the lives of strangers. and i'm enjoying the enteries very much! even if i haven't been generous with my commenting... thank you. :)
the last couple weekends Duane has spend some time at my new apartment. we are so comfortable and relaxed around each other, it's really wonderful. we are totally of the same seed.
i guess this is all i had to post about.
p.s.
a couple of nights ago, AJ left me a message. she told me that Geoffry wanted to speak with me again. what timing. it's funny how life comes full circle. i still don't know what to think.