Author:
kyumin86eunhaeGenre: Romance, Angst (but in such a tiny and ridiculous way that you can actually ignore it)
Pairing: Kyumin
Rating: NC-17 (Only wrote that rated part in because no one would read it with a lower rating. LOL.)
Length: One-shot with three parts
Warnings: It's me. I think that's enoug said, isn't it? But because it's required: Bad Language, fail!everything
Summary: Kyuhyun ran away to find freedom. Or actually something he didn't even exactly know. But what he found was - Sungmin.
Beta:
jennypham7 Third Act
Months passed. Cho Kyuhyun released a new movie under his name. It was about a man who loved a girl from his childhood but never confessed to her. His love drove him crazy, he couldn't tell anyone because she was his brother's wife. In the end, he became depressed and had to be sent into a mental hospital. Sungmin watched it and cried again.
"I still don't get it. Why do his movies keep making you cry? You haven't ever cried because of any movie before!", Eunhyuk still wondered.
"His movies are beautiful..."
"Well, at least he's not an one-hit-wonder."
Sungmin just nodded and clicked the 'Replay'-Button of the movie. "I love his movies.", he whispered while laying down on Eunhyuk's lap.
"I know...", the latter just sighed and stroked his friend's hair gently. "Hey, I met someone."
Sungmin hummed something. Eunhyuk continued.
"He's nice."
"You're gay?", Sungmin asked curiously and Eunhyuk suddenly was very interested in the movie they were watching for the nth time already.
"Didn't say I like him.", the younger boy murmured but Sungmin just giggled.
"You do, don't you? Tell me about him!"
"We're not that close but I have the feeling that there's something."
"It's about time for you, anyway."
Eunhyuk nodded even though he knew that Sungmin couldn't see him. "His name is Donghae."
"East Sea? Are you kidding me? What a weird name."
"I know, I was thinking the same."
Sungmin didn't answer anymore, too absorbed into the movie on his TV screen.
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Sungmin kept living his life, anticipating news of another movie by Cho Kyuhyun anyway and was happy when about every half year another masterpiece could be seen.
He noticed how every movie became more depressed, dealing with harsh topics as suicide and depressions but that made them even better. And with every movie, he not only loved the movies but also their maker, Cho Kyuhyun, even more.
There were days when he wanted to go to him, finally seeing him and never let him go again but then he just had to think of the movies. What waste it would be. Some nights, he found himself imagining how it would be to lay in Kyuhyun's arms, how it would be to kiss him everyday but his own mind, the one that was craving for good movies, could always comfort him not to want all this.
Eunhyuk and Donghae had started a relationship which went well most of the times but first named man still had to come over to his friend sometimes, asking for advice.
On a quite rainy day in the fall, Sungmin, now 26 years old, was watching a movie in his living room, when he heard something on the door. A key was put in and turned.
"Hey, Hyukkie.", Sungmin yelled in the door's direction, knowing that it wad his best friend since only he had the second key to his home.
"Lee Sungmin.", said friend growled while entering the apartment with big steps. Sungmin, startled by the unusual tone, stared at him as he threw something on the coffee table. It was a newspaper.
"What's this?"
"Read.", Eunhyuk demanded. Sungmin took the newspaper, unsure but his heart skipped a beat when he saw the big image in the middle of the page. Kyuhyun. Then he read the headline. 'Interview with young director Cho Kyuhyun'. He had never seen him anywhere since their meeting 8 years ago but he recognized him immediately. His face had barely changed, only a bit older and he looked... Stressed.
"Uuhhm.", Sungmin just said. Eunhyuk looked straight into his eyes.
"Don't fuck with me, that's the kid on that photo in your office."
Sungmin stared at his friend. He had completely forgotten that picture. Eunhyuk still caught his gaze.
"You knew it, didn't you? Is that the reason why you like his movies?"
Sungmin shook his head.
"No, I really love them."
Eunhyuk sighed. "Did you know it?"
Sungmin had no idea why his friend had that serious tone. What was the matter if he knew that Kyuhyun was the boy from nine years ago?
"Yes. His first movie was actually based on a true story, if you get what I mean."
Eunhyuk's face had come really close to his now.
"That explains why that character was exactly like you. Sungmin, do you actually know what you are doing to him? You know that he is making all these movies and I bet you know that they are all because of you, don't you? His movies are all about broken or unrequited love. They are about him and you. I've been always wondering why they were that touching and somehow... Uncompleted."
Sungmin hadn't moved an inch. Eunhyuk grabbed his shoulders.
"You know that, don't you?"
Sungmin nodded. Eunhyuk now sat down next to him.
"Why are you doing this to him? He loves you! I thought you... You liked him too!"
Sungmin wasn't looking at him anymore but somewhere on the ceiling.
"I love him too... It's just... I love movies as well. Especially his."
Eunhyuk narrowed his brows. "What exactly are you
trying to say?"
Sungmin was still staring at the ceiling. "Don't you get it? His movies are crying for me. They are beautiful. His movies would lose their meaning if we would meet."
Eunhyuk could just stare at him. "Are you insane?"
Sungmin now looked at him. "Why?"
"You love his movies more than him? Or is it just the selfish thought that he practically dedicates all his work to you? Can't you see him? He is depressed. How can you say that you love him if it doesn't matter to you if he suffers or not? He might think that you are dead!"
Sungmin bit his lip and pulled his knees up to his chin. "Stop it.", he whispered, his eyes closing.
"I'm not telling you what to do but you seriously should overthink your priorities. I'd never thought that there would be a day where I would question your love for movies but in my opinion, this goes way too far. Read the article or not, I would recommend it anyway. Call me when you've changed your mind.", Eunhyuk said coldly, standing up and leaving.
Sungmin still remained in his position and felt tears running down his cheeks now. This was not how he had thought it would be. He knew that Eunhyuk was right, may be a bit exaggerating but still right. Maybe he was insane.
He didn't even know himself what he wanted. Sure, the movies were brilliant and really well made. But there was that point that Eunhyuk had hit. He was craving for the love he received through those movies. He wanted to feel how much Kyuhyun loved him, through those movies.
"I am such a fucking egoist.", Sungmin growled and threw the remote into the corner. He had never thought of the person he loved, how much he would suffer by the thought of not reaching him through his movies, the reflections of his pure and deepest feelings.
Sungmin's hands were now frantically searching for his notebook, throwing everything out of his brief case. He finally found it and his fingers browsed through the pages, finally finding the one page he had been looking for.
"Gwangjin-gu, Jayang Sam-dong, The Sharp Star City Apartment, Building C, room 1101....", he whispered, bis eyes sparkling.
He dressed up and ran out of his apartment. Standing on the street, he noticed that he had forgotten the rain. But he had already called the cab and was afraid that he would miss it if he would go upstairs again to take one.
The cab arrived and Sungmin jumped in.
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Sungmin inhaled deeply. He was standing in front of that address. He didn't know if it was the right one, maybe he had moved in the last year?
It wouldn't be difficult to find the new one, having his connections, but Sungmin didn't want to wait any longer. Not anymore.
His finger was pushing the door bell. No reaction after a minute. Sungmin inhaled another time and pressed the button again. Don't give up the hope, he told himself. No answer.
All good things are three.
A last time, and this time he heard a noise inside. That was when he snapped out of his hypnotic, ecstatic state. Sungmin, what had you been thinking? How did you imagine it to be? What do you say when you meet him, two years after the release of his first movie?
What if...what if those movies weren't even for you but for someone else? Why would he love a person he just knew for two days for almost 8 years? Sungmin, what if you've lived in an illusion?
Too late. The door opened and Sungmin had already expected someone else to open the door, telling him that he is Kyuhyun's partner and asking him what he was doing here.
But it was just Kyuhyun, a towel wrapped around his waist and drying his hair with another towel.
"Sorry, I was showering and-"
Sungmin had hugged him, despite the towel and his still wet abdomen and Kyuhyun was more than just dumbfounded.
"Kyuhyun.", he whispered, his face buried in wet, warm skin but it didn't matter, he himself was wet from the rain and it wouldn't have matter anyway.
The other man was still startled, not really sure what he was supposed to do, not even knowing who that person was who just hugged him out of-
"Minnie?", escaped from his lips as a whisper, uncertain and so quiet that it could be barely heard. His arms hesitatingly wrapped around the other man, unbelieving and so slowly but when he felt Sungmin's warm body, he sighed and slowly felt a crawling in his nose that soon turned into tears, almost exploding after so many years he had to wait.
He was not the only one crying; Sungmin found himself wetting Kyuhyun's naked shoulder even more and when he felt Kyuhyun hugging him back, his breathe turned into sobs.
"I'm sorry.", he cried and snuggled closer to Kyuhyun.
The latter slowly pulled away and stared right into Sungmin's eyes, his hands still on his shoulders.
"What for?"
"Everything."
Kyuhyun nodded, because Kyuhyun understood. His hand was touching Sungmin's cheek now, wet from rain and tears and when he realized that the person in front of him was really there, that Minnie was real and had come back to him, he leaned forward and kissed him. It started as a simple touch of their lips; going deeper and closer, Kyuhyun pulling Sungmin to his body again.
It was a kiss that portrayed their very respective emotions, the craving that Kyuhyun had to hold back for so many years, hurting him most of the times but barely delighting him and the love that Sungmin felt for him and wanted from him, the love he had always been aching for, was it through Kyuhyun's movies or just in his dreams.
It was different from their first kiss which was innocent and sweet, Kyuhyun's tongue soon licked over Sungmin's lips and asking for entrance. Sungmin gladly parted his lips and accepted the other's tongue in his mouth, his own tongue tangling with Kyuhyun's and just feeling the other man on his lips.
Sungmin was the first to pull away, slightly panting and looking straight into Kyuhyun's eyes. Kyuhyun felt himself melting into those beautiful orbs when he finally asked the question that had been burning on his lips for eight years.
"What's your name?"
"I'm Lee Sungmin and I love you.", Sungmin said and hugged him again. Kyuhyun mouthed that name, tasting the feeling of saying that name and gently stroked Sungmin's wet hair.
"I love you too but I think you've probably noticed that already.", he whispered back. He heard a small giggle. "I like your reviews a lot. I've been always wondering how you managed it to describe my feelings right on the point. Turns out that it's you."
They remained in their position for a while, just holding onto each other and never want to let go again. Sungmin's hand began to roam over Kyuhyun's back and pulling him closer.
"What are you doing there?", Kyuhyun laughed quietly but didn't stop him.
Sungmin let out a small whimper. "I still can't believe it. I need to feel you under my hands to make sure that you are really there."
Kyuhyun sighed and buried his nose into Sungmin's hair. "Why did you leave at first place?"
"You are even asking? You were 16, I was 18, we met in another country and you were running away. You were too young, I was too young and we were both stupid."
Kyuhyun sighed another time and kissed Sungmin's forehead.
"I've always thought that you were just saying it, that you love me, and then left afterwards to never see me again."
Sungmin stood on his tiptoes and kissed Kyuhyun's nose.
"Pabo. I've always loved you. Actually, I was thinking that you were just saying it out of a weird impulse, maybe because you just had a crush on me."
"Maybe you're right." Kyuhyun sighed and looked somewhere over Sungmin's shoulder. "I was too young to know what love was, anyway. But you were like the most fascinating person that ever crossed my way and I can promise you that I fell in love with you over the years when you were not with me."
"You know, if I had known that I was going to fall in love with you, I would have never even spoken to you. I wanted to have some fun. Tell me I'm selfish because I thought that you were still innocent and oblivious about everything and kinda used you for my own selfish entertainment. I'm sorry.."
"You said you loved me."
"I did. I still do. I just thought that... Well, when you confessed to me, I already had the feeling that it was just a crush and I didn't want to destroy your life by getting too close to you. I wanted you to be free and open for the adventure called life, so it was actually my aim that you were supposed to forget me after all."
Kyuhyun had listened patiently and now pulled him into his apartment. Both were sitting on his couch now and while Kyuhyun couldn't rip his glance away from the man in front of him, he moved his face closer with every second of his own speech.
"How could I ever forget the person who changed my life? It was the hell, you know? Not being able to forget you and even falling in love with the memory of you. You know, it didn't get any better when you didn't react to my first movie. It told myself that you lost your interest in movies but deep inside, I was afraid that you forgot me or just didn't want to see me anymore. And even deeper inside, there was always the worst nightmare of mine, that you were dead. I still cannot believe that the person who made my life miserable is the person I love more than everything else in the world.", he said, his forehead on Sungmin's and looking into his eyes. He felt his heart clenching when those eyes filled with tears and regretted everything he said.
"I'm sorry. I'm an asshole. I don't even deserve your love. You should go and look for someone better.", Sungmin murmured, not looking into Kyuhyun's eyes.
Kyuhyun chuckled and kissed him again, something he thought he could do the whole day.
"I've always chosen the bad decision and it started the day I ran away and met you in that bar."
Sungmin bit his lip and bursted into tears. Kyuhyun hugged him and stroked his back. He himself sniffed a few times, his own happiness overwhelming him.
"I have another question.", Kyuhyun said then. Sungmin entangled his arms behind Kyuhyun's back and snuggled closer to him.
"Tell me.", he breathed against Kyuhyun's skin, inhaling the fresh scent of his shower gel.
"Why did you say that I wasn't ready? You know, my boner actually bothered me through the whole night."
Sungmin had to laugh. "You remember? I wanted you to forget me. How could you ever forget me if I not only stole your first kiss but also your first time?"
Kyuhyun laughed along but soon stopped, his lips suddenly on Sungmin's jaw.
"So... Am I ready now? I've waited eight years.", he whispered while kissing from Sungmin's jaw up to his ear where he slowly wrapped his full lips around the earlobe and began to suck.
Sungmin stopped breathing for a moment and closed his eyes, startled at first, but he felt his own body responding to Kyuhyun's touch, blood rushing down in his pelvis and his hands touching all over Kyuhyun's abdomen.
"Kyu-ah-hyun...", he panted out, not sure what to say.
"You said you wanted to feel me and I promise you that I let you feeling me in a way you never did before.", the younger man said huskily while his hands slipped under Sungmin's shirt and gently beginning to caress his skin.
"Yes... Please.", Sungmin whimpered and moved on Kyuhyun's lap, lips searching for lips. He realized that he had waited for this just as long as Kyuhyun had and brought his hand between his own legs to Kyuhyun's cock that was only covered by the towel. He felt that it was already half hard and slowly began to grind his hips down, not hard but gentle and closed his eyes when he heard Kyuhyun's quiet moans into his mouth. The latter lifted him up as he was, legs entangled behind his back and arms around his neck and made his way to his bedroom.
Sungmin laughed when he fell into the soft cushions and Kyuhyun smiled while crawling on top of him. How he had missed that laugh. It was still exact the same. Their lips met again, slowly and wet and Kyuhyun smiled when he felt Sungmin's hands on his waist, pulling the towel away. The kiss was broken due to the lack of oxygen and Kyuhyun took the opportunity to get rid of Sungmin's shirt. His finger brushed over milky-white skin and hard nipples and his lips kissed every centimeter of Sungmin's body they could reach. Sungmin bit his lips to suppress his moans until Kyuhyun's lips were on his again, forcing them to open with his tongue.
"Let it out. I want to hear it.", he mumbled into their kiss while his hands fumbled with Sungmin's zipper. Sungmin obeyed and long, willing moans escaped from his lips. Kyuhyun licked his lips as he heard that, more than just delighted and leaned forward to let his tongue brushing over Sungmin's sensitive nipples. Encouraged by even louder groans and pants, he began to suck, closing his eyes and enjoying Sungmin's taste in his cavern.
Sungmin had managed it to get rid of his trousers and underwear finally and pulled Kyuhyun's head up in order to feel his lips on his again.
The kiss turned out longer than planned, both absolutely engrossed in that kiss that was already a bit messy from their pants of lust and pleasure. Sungmin was the first to pull away and now looked at his lover from head to toe for the first time. Kyuhyun was already slightly sweating, his body wet from water and sweat, panting from their kiss and his prominent erection was dripping from precum. Sungmin shivered. Kyuhyun was long and he was not sure if he would really enjoy that shoving up his asshole. Kyuhyun noticed his hesitation and took his hand.
"Hey, I won't hurt you. Promise.", he said and looked into Sungmin's eyes with a look that made the latter immediately believing every single word.
"Okay.", he whispered out and Kyuhyun's lips were on his again, no tongue, just a simple peck when his hands were roaming over Sungmin's thighs and spreading them apart.
His hands ran up to Sungmin's inner thigh and he heard the older man gasping as the gentle touch brushed over sensitive skin until it came to his manhood, standing up hard and throbbing. Kyuhyun smiled and tracked his index finger up from Sungmin's cock head down to the base, feeling the soft skin on his balls and reaching his puckered hole afterwards. He poked the entrance carefully and looked up to Sungmin to see his reaction. Said man was holding his breathe in anticipation and his face was burning from embarrassment as he saw his lover inspecting his member and his hole.
Kyuhyun chuckled as he saw it and kissed Sungmin's cock head.
"Ever so shy. You are the most beautiful person ever, you know that?", he whispered out while his finger slowly invaded Sungmin's hole and stretching it in the same progress.
"Stop!", Sungmin panted out and Kyuhyun immediately froze.
"Shall I pull out?"
"No, no, just... give me some time. It's a bit weird."
Kyuhyun nodded and reached up with his head, his lips catching Sungmin in another kiss to let him forget the uncomfortable feeling. He felt Sungmin's walls clenching around his finger in unsteady intervals, sucking it in. Sungmin moaned into his mouth, hips unconsciously bucking against Kyuhyun's hand.
"Okay, you can go deeper.", he panted and shut his eyes. Kyuhyun slowly went deeper and Sungmin didn't complain until he couldn't get any deeper.
"Can I add another one?", Kyuhyun asked in worry and Sungmin nodded frantically.
"It feels so good..."
Kyuhyun sighed in relief and pulled his finger out to penetrate his lover with two fingers now. But he stopped as he felt that his fingers were too dry and Sungmin's hole still too tight.
"Wait.", he said and reached over to his bedside table were he opened the first drawer and taking out a tube of body lotion.
"This should work.", he said and poured a bit of the thick liquid on his fingers until they were covered and the lotion dripping from his ankles.
He entered Sungmin with his index and middle fingers, slowly but steadily. Sungmin seemed okay as he just bit his lip but didn't cry out and then closed his eyes and threw his head back.
"Kyu-aaahhh... Yes, this feels wonderful. Deeper, please.", he moaned.
Kyuhyun added another finger and began to stretch his hole, feeling the tight heat clenching around his fingers again.
"Does it hurt? Tell me if it does, please, I don't want to hurt you."
Sungmin looked at him. "Come on, Kyuhyun. Do it. You've waited long enough.", he whispered.
Kyuhyun knew that Sungmin was still afraid since his cock was way thicker and longer than his fingers.
"Are you sure? I mean, are you ready?"
Sungmin sat up and took the tube with the lotion. Then he poured a generous amount of it on his hand and took Kyuhyun's hard penis in his hands. He began to cover it with the lotion, carefully and slowly that Kyuhyun had to hold his breathe because of the sudden pleasure those hands on his member were giving him. He groaned and felt Sungmin's lips on his own, his tongue slowly swirling around his. Sungmin's finger poked his slit, mingling lotion with precum and his haft tightened around Kyuhyun's member, scattering the lotion by moving up and down. Then he pulled away and Kyuhyun saw a sparkling in his eyes as his hands were still giving him the probably best handjob ever.
"I am ready. I want you. I love you."
Kyuhyun smiled, the happiness those words were giving him was unutterable and making his mind going dizzy. He took Sungmin's hands in his own and placed his lotion-covered member in front of his lover's entrance before slowly penetrating it. He stopped halfway to look at Sungmin who just smiled and encouraged him with a peck.
"Come on, I'm okay."
Kyuhyun groaned when he felt the tight, really tight walls around his manhood, so hot and fucking tight that he thought that he had to come right at the spot. His and Sungmin's hands were holding onto each other, firm and strong, never want to let each other go again.
"Oh god, you feel so good.", Kyuhyun moaned as his forehead was leaned against Sungmin's.
The latter laughed lightly and wiggled his ass a bit, getting used to that strange feeling in his entrance. It didn't hurt at all, Kyuhyun had prepared him really well, only thestrange feeling of having something in your asshole was new to him.
"Move."
Kyuhyun kissed his nose. "I love you.", said he and slowly pulled his member out a bit, only to push it into the tight heat again. Sungmin moaned and Kyuhyun repeated his action, this time changing the angle of thrust a bit. It went smoothly, thanks to the lube-like consistence of the lotion and Kyuhyun could move rather fast, earning erratic pants from Sungmin.
"Yes- deeper.", Sungmin moaned and Kyuhyun obeyed. He went as deep as possible, his hands on Sungmin's hips now and pulling him up, slowly until-
"OOOOh my god, Kyuhyun. Do that again. Do it-haaah-again!"
The younger boy now wondered what he had been doing but didn't refuse anyway and pushed his member in again while still holding onto Sungmin's hips.
"Ah! Yes, right there!"
Oh, Kyuhyun thought in delight as he realized what had happened. He had hit Sungmin's feel-good-spot.
"You-hah- like that?", he whispered huskily as he slammed in this time, hitting it dead-on.
"I- haaah- love it. Nghh- faster."
And Kyuhyun did as he was told. His cock went in and out, faster and faster and he hit Sungmin's prostate every single time. Again. Again and again. Every time he earned a moan, a cry of pleasure and Kyuhyun heard himself moaning along as Sungmin's walls contracted around his hard cock with every thrust, giving him a pleasure he could have not even dreamed of. His hands were on each side of Sungmin's head, supporting his weight and several drops of sweats fell down on his lover's face, running down his flawless cheeks along with Sungmin's own sweat.
Sungmin responded to every of his thrusts, bucking his hips back and meeting his movements. They were looking in each others eyes and both knew that their eyes were saying more than a million words could ever say.
Kyuhyun sat up, his eyes never leaving Sungmin's, continuing his thrusts and going even faster and deeper. His hands roamed over Sungmin's hips, moving to his hard member and wrapping his long fingers around the throbbing manhood.
Sungmin sighed out loud, moans getting higher and shorter as Kyuhyun began to tighten his grip and moving in sync to his thrusts.
"Aah! Kyuhyun- I'm - hah- close- ngghh..."
Kyuhyun nodded, biting his lower lip as he himself felt the crawling, the pooling in his stomach building up.
"Me- hah- too. Together?", he panted, breathe too short to form a whole sentence. Sungmin closed his eyes and nodded.
He felt Kyuhyun's thrusts getting faster, he felt Kyuhyun's balls slapping on his ass curve and then, finally, the final thrust against his prostate came, the thrust that threw him over the edge.
"Oh my god! Kyuhyun!", he shouted out, eyes wide open from the sensation that exploded in white, bright stars behind his eyes and made him experiencing a feeling he never had before.
Kyuhyun came at the same moment; he filled his lover up with white semen as he slowly pulled in and out a few times, riding out his orgasm. He felt his hands being wetted by Sungmin's cum and the scream of his name still resonating in his head. It was adding so much into the satisfaction he had received that he couldn't hold it anymore and collapsed on top of Sungmin.
He felt Sungmin's short breathe against his face, only a few centimeters away from his. He could only stare at that beautiful, flushed face and his finger slowly trailed down Sungmin's cheek. He couldn't believe it, what just happened and even less he could believe that it was really that person, Sungmin, who was there right under him.
Sungmin smiled at him, exhausted but happy. His hair was messy and wet, face covered in sweat and portraying pure satisfaction. He took Kyuhyun's hand that was still on his cheek and kissed the cum covered fingertips.
"That was perfect.", he sighed and pulled the younger boy with his other hand closer until their lips brushed. "I love you."
Kyuhyun closed his eyes and deepened their kiss. "I think it is impossible to be as happy as I am right now. I love you too. I love you so much that I actually cannot express it in words anymore. So much that it hurts to see you but even more not to see you.", he whispered and felt tears in his eye corner again. "Don't leave me.", he added and his arms wrapped around Sungmin, holding him tight and slowly drifting off to sleep.
Sungmin looked at the sleeping face, somehow familiar as it showed happiness and contentment. He still loved movies but he realized that he loved Kyuhyun more.
Much more.
"I won't leave you.", Sungmin whispered to the sleeping face and snuggled closer to Kyuhyun, soon falling asleep.
The scene had been familiar, but now, when the third act curtain falls, we can see that something changed.
Because Sungmin is still in Kyuhyun's arms and sleeps.
He hasn't left.
A/N: Cheesiness alert. Don't brick me, okay? I tried it. At least. I don't want to excuse myself by saying: Ohhhh, I had too much work to do and school and such ~ I mean, if anyone would really that busy, he would concentrate on school/work etc and don't write Fics anymore, aite? :D The fault is indeed just in my writing style and the lack of ideas and fantasy. There are the blessed ones and the others-me. Buuut!: Don't worry, be happy with what you have/are :D See you next time~ lalala