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So many things have happened over the past two months. I never imagined things of this sort happening in my life. It's always someone else who is really down and out. You think "That's a horrible situation to be in, it must be hard for them.." Except it was me. The surprising thing is it didn't seem all that horrible to me. Despite the bad situations and stress the changes did a lot of good for me. I came out of a mutually abusive relationship, an ugly custody battle, and living in a homeless shelter okay.
I have lived for so long doing nothing.. since I graduated high school. I did nothing to achieve all these plans in my head, living a false sense that I had the life I wanted when it really was going nowhere. If that makes any sense at all..
But anyways Thom and I had another one of our horrible fights and everything I knew ended. I moved out with Rory and went to my mom's. Thom and I couldn't be civil enough to talk or work out visitation. Not surprisingly that resulted in fighting it out in court. The day of our last court date I agreed to give him visitation before the paternity had been adjudicated. Well, this went against what my mom wanted.. she wanted to drag him through hell before seeing Rory being the sadistic bitch she is. Because I didn't do what she said this turned my life upside down once again. Once I was done in court she disappeared. She had left me Downtown with no means of getting back. Luckily, the advocate whom accompanied me to court was kind enough to buy me a train ticket. An hour and a half or so later I found myself screaming and telling off my mother. She had the nerve to get mad at me and tried to punch me while I was holding my daughter. THEN call the cops on me.
Which brings me to the homeless shelter. I just left after staying nearly a month. Now I will be moving to St. Cloud on Wednesday. Thom and I have made up and are doing fairly good now. The plan is to stay with his mom for a few days until our rental application is finalized.
My entire life has changed so much in this amount of time. The things we did have going for us before we broke up are now gone, our dreams will not become a reality if at all for a very long time.
I think that's enough for now. I'll come back to the part where all of this has had a positive impact some other time.
I have lived for so long doing nothing.. since I graduated high school. I did nothing to achieve all these plans in my head, living a false sense that I had the life I wanted when it really was going nowhere. If that makes any sense at all..
But anyways Thom and I had another one of our horrible fights and everything I knew ended. I moved out with Rory and went to my mom's. Thom and I couldn't be civil enough to talk or work out visitation. Not surprisingly that resulted in fighting it out in court. The day of our last court date I agreed to give him visitation before the paternity had been adjudicated. Well, this went against what my mom wanted.. she wanted to drag him through hell before seeing Rory being the sadistic bitch she is. Because I didn't do what she said this turned my life upside down once again. Once I was done in court she disappeared. She had left me Downtown with no means of getting back. Luckily, the advocate whom accompanied me to court was kind enough to buy me a train ticket. An hour and a half or so later I found myself screaming and telling off my mother. She had the nerve to get mad at me and tried to punch me while I was holding my daughter. THEN call the cops on me.
Which brings me to the homeless shelter. I just left after staying nearly a month. Now I will be moving to St. Cloud on Wednesday. Thom and I have made up and are doing fairly good now. The plan is to stay with his mom for a few days until our rental application is finalized.
My entire life has changed so much in this amount of time. The things we did have going for us before we broke up are now gone, our dreams will not become a reality if at all for a very long time.
I think that's enough for now. I'll come back to the part where all of this has had a positive impact some other time.