These are my arms...this is my heart
Right now I feel really...blah. My life has changed so much lately...but I'm not like whoa stressed or anything anymore. I'm gonna just take things as they come...you know? I feel bad for people that have to deal with me sometimes though...I feel like I used to be a lot more fun. I feel like I hold grudges for things WAY too long...I KNOW I'm way too hard on people...I feel disappointing...but at the same time...I feel ok.
Classes are actually gonna go fine...I really feel like I'm starting to get the hang of not drawing like complete and utter crap...maybe I actually can do this art major thing. Bonnie might come to Auburn, which would make next schoolyear the best EVER!!!! Our place for next year will be amazing. For the first time in my life I'm dating a boy that my Mom actually likes and I like him a lot too. I'm gonna go on trips this summer and I'm gonna have a damn good time! With so many good things going around...I still feel blah...I'm not my usual crazy excited about life...I guess I just need my thing to look forward to. I always need something fun and exciting to look forward too that keeps me going. I NEED that...yes I do...help finding it??? maybe? eh??
I've thought a lot about getting a tattoo lately. I actually thought of something that I think I could have tattooed on me...a sheep. I've always really liked sheep...one of my fav animals. Maybe on the back of my shoulder is the concensus so far.
I found some whoa cute pictures...sooo...we'll see...might be getting a tattoo
Talking with someone helped me to realize how I should quit some of the bad habits in my life for myself and not for anyone else...for the right reasons...so I really think I should put the whole smoking thing out the door. Thanks for reminding me that I should do it for myself.:)
Well, maybe I'm completely lame...but things are actually just good right now. Sure there's always gonna be drama and stress and whatever that you can let bring you down...but I do have too much to be happy about to let that happen.
Classes are actually gonna go fine...I really feel like I'm starting to get the hang of not drawing like complete and utter crap...maybe I actually can do this art major thing. Bonnie might come to Auburn, which would make next schoolyear the best EVER!!!! Our place for next year will be amazing. For the first time in my life I'm dating a boy that my Mom actually likes and I like him a lot too. I'm gonna go on trips this summer and I'm gonna have a damn good time! With so many good things going around...I still feel blah...I'm not my usual crazy excited about life...I guess I just need my thing to look forward to. I always need something fun and exciting to look forward too that keeps me going. I NEED that...yes I do...help finding it??? maybe? eh??
I've thought a lot about getting a tattoo lately. I actually thought of something that I think I could have tattooed on me...a sheep. I've always really liked sheep...one of my fav animals. Maybe on the back of my shoulder is the concensus so far.
I found some whoa cute pictures...sooo...we'll see...might be getting a tattoo
Talking with someone helped me to realize how I should quit some of the bad habits in my life for myself and not for anyone else...for the right reasons...so I really think I should put the whole smoking thing out the door. Thanks for reminding me that I should do it for myself.:)
Well, maybe I'm completely lame...but things are actually just good right now. Sure there's always gonna be drama and stress and whatever that you can let bring you down...but I do have too much to be happy about to let that happen.