my baby says you don't give a fuck about me
Today was a really good day. I LOVE giving people gifts and such soooo much! I love my Katie and I hope her b-day did go well...but I know I sure enjoyed two cakes and Mexican food and RENT and yes.
Life has been soooo CRAZY lately though...but I'm actually handling it really well. Boy drama is always a blast and I'm pretty amazing at fucking it up....a lot. Met some nice boys...yes I did. Kind of blew it...sweet. I'm not gonna be hurt anymore by him though...this past time was my final mistake with that kid...he's hurt me too much....but I don't dislike him...I just want him to get better...ok...I'm lame. I'm just so tired of that drama in my life...maybe denial is bad, but it sure is hella fun! Why do we always have to dwell on all of the negative in life? I'm tired of doing things other people's way...it's my way now. I don't want to cry or be emotional or a girl or whatnot. I don't wanna rush things...I just wanna enjoy the good times with the people I know and adore. Guess I don't have to worry about the rush thing though...cuz that's over...sigh...oh well...I did it to myself.
Sometimes I wish I was more open with my feelings...I feel like people would understand me a lot better...oh well. I just can't wait for a break or something...I'm just antsy...I need some sort of change or something big to happen. School=sucks...I've gotten behind and such. But I'm glad to say that I am ready for whatever life throws at me next! I am getting hella better...I handle such dramatic situations decently better now...or at least better for myself. Oh geez...so I'm rambling...I haven't written down my thoughts in a long time and honestly I don't really know what to think of life as of late...but I know that it has kept on going whether I wanted it to or not...so keep it coming.
Florida this weekend...Dana b-day and Bon Ton sex next weekend...then Bama...and Spring Break coming up soon as well! So life is gonna get more interesting and busy and yes. I'm ready. I do wish some people would give me a break in life...but who cares...I'm just a movin along down that whindy road of life.
Let's put that love deal on the backburner...cuz it scorched the hell out of me
le sigh