To you from me...
I'm tired, I'm sleepy..I'm blah..I'm emotional..I'm having a Motherly moment....My Violet Skyy is sleeping..She's soo beautiful to me..Glowing..and smiling..She just stares at me ALL DAY..well when she's awake..She cries for me..It's a very POWERFUL feeling..I've never in my life have felt love like hers..I love to talk to her..WE just stare at eachothers eyes..and we just talk..Well she coos..and smiles...It's touches my heart so deeply. I needed her soo bad in my life..as I needed Mike in my life..I don't know where I would be without them..Thank you God for showing me and guiding me....
So I am sitting here..I never called Jorge back..sighs..it's too late to call now..................I can't wait to see him this weekend...
Sighs..My mom told me today..I hope you don't mind..but I invited Chuck to the house for Easter....I hate that guy..He treats my mom like shit..and yet she lets him walk all over her...OOH..sorry that's her latest bf..Or whatever he is..xbf..I just cannot stand the guy..I hate seeing my mom like that..She's 46 years old and she still acts like she's in highschool..Come on mom..if he says WE ARE NOT A COUPLE..MOVE THE FUCK ON!!! There soo much I can say..yet it goes in one ear..and out the other..So WHATEVER!! The sad thing is that my sisters witness this behavior.....OH that's another subject...
I'm just going on and on...and not looking back....fuck you if you think it's boring or just lame..This is my journal..if you don't like it...Don't come here anymore.....
Yesterday I showered, did my makeup, bathed Violet Skyy, and cleaned the apt in less than a HOUR..YAY!! It wasn't easy..Violet Skyy was fussy..but I wasn't about to let her have her way..She needs to learn that I am not going to jump at her demand..Things need to be done around the house and I'm the one to do it......
Am I talking too much....??
I just got a call from my husband..hehe..I said husband..
Ok Violet I'm writing this to you b/c in the long run..I want you to find a man like your father...I never had a father and it was extemely important that I'd find a GOOD man to father my children..Your father helps me soo much..Sometimes I feel like I'm asking for too much..But he helps me with washing your clothes, he takes good care of you, he changes your diapers...yes even when it's really yucky....ewwww......, he cleans the apt, makes me food (yes he cooks), takes us places, watches cartoons with you..YEAH HE EVEN GETS INTO IT...haha.......blah..blah blah..The list goes on..but most importantly is that he spends time with us..He stares at you like I stare at you. He loves you soo much! He works hard for us..But don't worry soon I'll be going back to work...He treats me like a queen. Anything I want he goes out and gets it..no questions asked..He pampers my every move. He's very affectionate in and out of the house..Yes in public too..Not to long ago we were dancing in the MARKET..Frozen section..YEAH WHAT THE HELL.. ..!!! HA..!! He'll tell me ..Just go with it..He tells me he loves me a million times a day..So you need to learn these things..b/c I almost just gave up on dating..I thought there would never be a man like your father...and yet..God blessed me with him and blessed me with you..There's soo many things I want to teach you...I can't wait..I can't wait till you get up....just so I can kiss you all over..Just so I can see you smile..Just so our eyes can meet...
So here I sit..waiting for Violet Skyy to wake up.........and Mike to come home from work...................................
NO SPELL CHECK DAMN IT....