yeah
hearing rachael's story about her friends car accident made me sick to my stomach. i couldnt even imagine.
that makes me not want my mom to drive. or my sister, when she is able to again. im not afraid of death myself, but im deathly afraid of losing my mom and my sister. i dont know what i would do.
you would probably end up seeing me in a mental institution...for the rest of my life. i would go fucking insane.
i dont get what im supposed to do about my friends. everyone has changed dramatically. i dont know what to think anymore.
work is going well i guess. im hoping i will get the position. but if not im done. i get wierd vibes from everyone. i need more money.
im lazy i suppose. i could have gotten an extra job on the side...or i actually could have kept 1 of the 4 i have gotten but stood up. whatever.
my mom keeps going to the doctors. they say there is a chance she is bleeding internally. no one knows how stressed out i am about that. again, what am i supposed to think? right.
i wanted to be at shellys right now. obviously im not there. fucking wind picked up. and the rain. and the traffic, im sure, hasnt died down yet. so i sit and wait.
something is wrong with me. i guess ive had too much on my mind.
too much bullshit going on. working at my job gives me time to think. i think i think too much. i remember typing that a long time ago too. whatever. maybe its just today. and yesterday. but yesterday i just went with the flow. today im just an irritable bitch. im just sick of shit right now. i'll be ok.
that makes me not want my mom to drive. or my sister, when she is able to again. im not afraid of death myself, but im deathly afraid of losing my mom and my sister. i dont know what i would do.
you would probably end up seeing me in a mental institution...for the rest of my life. i would go fucking insane.
i dont get what im supposed to do about my friends. everyone has changed dramatically. i dont know what to think anymore.
work is going well i guess. im hoping i will get the position. but if not im done. i get wierd vibes from everyone. i need more money.
im lazy i suppose. i could have gotten an extra job on the side...or i actually could have kept 1 of the 4 i have gotten but stood up. whatever.
my mom keeps going to the doctors. they say there is a chance she is bleeding internally. no one knows how stressed out i am about that. again, what am i supposed to think? right.
i wanted to be at shellys right now. obviously im not there. fucking wind picked up. and the rain. and the traffic, im sure, hasnt died down yet. so i sit and wait.
something is wrong with me. i guess ive had too much on my mind.
too much bullshit going on. working at my job gives me time to think. i think i think too much. i remember typing that a long time ago too. whatever. maybe its just today. and yesterday. but yesterday i just went with the flow. today im just an irritable bitch. im just sick of shit right now. i'll be ok.